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Thought
Self Cannibalism
Jul 18th
Sunday.
The day of rest.
You know. Last year…I would have been fine staying at home(s), watching TV shows and just not doing anything.
These days…if someone asks me out I’d go out, no questions asked.
Sunday.
I’m like thinking “Who would want to come out on a Sunday night?”.
“Sure John! I would love to come out!”
is what I would like to hear.
I’m going to trial not posting updates to twitter. I wonder how I’ll feel about that.
On one hand I’ll feel sad that my “readers” will drop. On the other hand I’m somewhat glad that readership will drop.
I dunno.
I feel that sooner or later I’ll open it up to people.
Meh. That will be all for now.
Don’t feel like it
Jul 17th
So I’m up at 2:27am. I don’t feel like going to bed. Apple press conference is in 30 minutes so I might as well find out what the fuss is all about.
Sigh.
Was really hoping to have plans for Friday night. Was pretty close…but nope…fail. Have plans for tomorrow night though…well technically it’ll be tonight. Then nothing on Sunday…but I do wanna go out.
Sigh.
“So what else is new? I mean…apart from the stuff you write on you blog?”
I don’t know whether to find that amusing or sad.
So how’s my day?
Well I woke up at 4:30am thinking “Fuck yes!…oh…shit…um…what time is it?…I’m thirsty and need to pee”
I finally pulled myself out of bed at around 11am, feeling quite good. Although my upper body was so fucking sore. It still is.
Wasted 2 more hours doing shit and then headed into uni.
Boring as fuck.
Got no work done although I did get myself familiar with the code (the code that I haven’t touched in weeks).
Supervisor doesn’t give a shit about me. I see him on the street and he just gives me a head nod and carries on. Sigh. I’m really not the type to cling onto people. I rather prefer them to cling onto me. Same deal with pining. I hate pining over people, but the reverse? I’m easily persuaded if you begin to pine.
Make a 10 min phone call at 5. Went well.
The followup texts? Well…I fucked up somewhere. Do di do.
Which ended up with me packing up my shit and leaving SIT at 6:30pm. Quite the contrast to the night before.
Lmao, I would blog about it…but technically I already have haha.
Aye…what else is there?
Me
Jul 14th
God I hate Wednesdays.
Wednesdays is when I work.
No…I don’t hate work.
So why do I hate Wednesdays you ask?
Wednesdays just pisses me off. Something always manages to come up. I was on the train this morning…on my phone…on facebook…I shan’t go on any more.
Was talking to a workmate today.
“How’s life?”
“Aye…life is…blah”
“The usual?”
“Yeah. Well…not really. Same old shit…different flavour”
Can’t be put any more eloquently.
I enjoy Wednesday nights. It’s like as if it’s a beginning of the weekend for me.
I was told I’m too forgiving.
Maybe I am. But for the moment…I should just give it time. Yes…more time.
My optus bill came in today. I looked at it…$74. What is this shit? Last month it said I’ve paid off my iPhone 3g so why is my bill still $74?! I ended up checking both bills and yup…bills remaining for the iphone 3g is 0 but yet I’m still getting charged for the phone that I’ve bought already.
Ridiculous.
TIme to give Optus a call I suppose. Fucking Optus.
Sigh.
On the BRIGHT side. I can claim $4.1k back in tax. $3k would go into my final semester. Not sure what I’ll do with the $1000, probably save it I guess. Then there’s also that $650 from centerlink I’ll be getting.
TSA still owes me $42 and I owe Steph $75.
Anyway, I think I’m gonna go for a run, not gonna bother with my usual mundane course, just gonna keep on running till I collapse…
Mafia
Jul 12th
Everybody has played mafia before right?
But there’s more variations to the rules of mafia than the colours of the rainbow. Everybody plays it differently and it largely depends on the group you play it with.
I’ve more or less played 3 main variations of mafia (the previous statement was a hyperbole…I can sense you trolls already).
- Variation 1 – There are mafias and police officers
- Variation 2 – There are only mafias
- Variation 3 – There are mafias, police officers, doctors and suicide bombers
I “played” variation 3 yesterday. I was bored before the first round. Just the mere idea of having all those characters turns a psychological warfare game into a game of scissors paper rock. Or perhaps it was simply because of the alcohol inside me that made my attention span drop to the size of a pea.
I was taught variation 1 and it was the one I preferred. Nice and simple. But then I was later introduced to variation 2. The interesting thing about variation 2 is that mafias do not kill. You kill off people by simply going around the circle and getting each person to in turn accuse someone being a mafia and then everybody votes. If there is a majority the person dies. I first thought “this seems a bit dull…” but soon I realised that this is fact is actually the most fun.
Police officers more or less give players the ability to guess who the mafias are. The problem with this variation is that as soon as the police guesses a significant amount of mafias, they can just sacrifice themselves to reveal the information.
The great thing about variation 2 is that it’s 100% psychological warfare. There’s no random killings and no police officers guessing who’s mafia and what not. It makes the game so much more interesting as accusations go flying across the circle.
That’s my 2 cents about this game.
I just lost the game.
We’ll see
Jul 8th
I’m not going to publish this blog. I wonder how many people will read it. The people that have this on RSS will obviously read it. I wonder…
Things aren’t going so well.
Confused about a lot of things. Don’t really have any direction.
I decided to stop playing HoN for a lot of reasons. I won’t bother going through them. Today I was so bored that I decided to play 3 games. They weren’t even fun. It’s like you’re watching one of those tv shows or movies where the guy quits drinking and then something happens in his life and he’s just like “fuck it, what does it matter?” yeah…it was one of those days.
Things will get better kiddo.
I don’t doubt that…but when?
I got marks back for 3 of my subjects. 3 credits. Waiting for one more. If I get a pass then it might be over for me. I guess it’ll be the easy way out. It’s sorta like when you’re playing a game and there’s two options in front of you, you don’t know which one to take. Then you realise you’re missing the bridge pass and can’t go through one of them anyway, so the decision is more or less made for you.
Take the path less travelled by they say. Which path is that? We’re at a stage where every path is different.
It’ll be my first semester without a single Distinction. I don’t know how I feel about that. I’m not sad, I’m definitely not happy though…indifferent. Work is great though. I spent the entire day yesterday fixing this report for the business. Met the client and talked through requirements…this was 2 days before the report is meant to be finalised. She more or less changed her requirements and so we had to make a few changes.
The application is heaps old, everything is done via pyodbc so you’re more or less playing with SQL statements. Yuck. Anyway, 15 minutes before I had to leave, I was showing my boss what I had achieved and then outlined several problems. It turns out one of the problems is quite major and there is no clean workaround. Basically for one particular case around 6*30 checks needs to be performed per item. So that’s 180 DB queries. Sigh. Whatever, bottom line is that it’ll take a long time to generate the report. I don’t want to talk about it any more.
Keep expectations low. Avoid disappointments.
Edit: I fail, posted the wrong tag so it tweeted. Changed url I wonder who will notice now…
Runnin’
Jun 28th
I decided to go for a afternoon run today. Did 5 laps around Kogarah park in 30 minutes. Around 4.5km. As I was running I thought back to Year 7 and the 1.6km run. My first attempt was something along the lines of 10 minutes 45 sec. Yeah…I was that bad. I think at my peak I got it down to 7 minutes 40 seconds. It just made me realise how much fitter I am now. Kinda amazing. I guess it’s cause I have longer legs and run a further distance with less steps. I reckon I can easily beat my previous record.
I wonder how long it’ll take me to do the 1.6km. Maybe I should go to Moore Park and find out. Anyone else up for it?
Still haven’t done a lot for honours 
I think I need to get into SIT before I can do any reasonable amounts of work. Supervisor isn’t going to be happy.
So it’s settled, I’m going to Ted’s tomorrow to buy the D5000 with 18-55mm lens. Then I’ll need to head into Auburn for a gathering. I thought it’d be a good time to buy it now for the following reasons:
- EOFYS
- Charity Night for “The Studs” on 1st July
- Parents planning on going to Port Stephens next Tuesday
It’s so random, mum was just like “Hey wanna go to Port Stephens for next Tuesday?” “Sure”. So hopefully I’ll be able to snap pictures of dolphins and what not.
Then I was like “Wait…is this through an Asian tour group?”
“Yeah”
“Does that mean there’s gonna be heaps of Asians?”
“Yeah since it’s an Asian tour group. They’ll be speaking in Chinese”
FML…
During dinner, dear mother alerted me of some other interesting news. Apparently, after finding out that there exists a 21 year old son who works at Macquarie Bank, two of her workmates have been desperately trying to organise a gathering between the families to get the young ones introduced to each other. It sounded quite absurd. Mother replied with “I like Chinese. Does your daughter know how to cook Chinese food?”. Who cares right? As long as she can make me a delicious sandwich. Snap.
I blog too much.
Universe works in mysterious ways
Jun 27th
So I went K with a bunch of friends on Monday. Yup it was Monday. I lost my headphones that day. I didn’t realise until Thursday that I had lost them. On Wednesday I was late for work and didn’t bother looking for them. On Thursday I was off to my run and couldn’t find them…and that’s when I realised that they were GONE.
I was sad panda. The thing with tech is that you always get something that’s better than the previous pair. I wasn’t planning on topping a $100 pair of headphones any time soon. Gah! I think I left it on the table at K when I took them out of my pocket…sigh.
So I was googling around and found a pair of earphones off the apple website that also featured volume controls for the iphone/ipod, but those were around $120. I was like “Fuck that…” and decided against it.
The previous time when my headphones broke I held off buying headphones for a whole year. It was unbelievable, I couldn’t believe I spent 1 year without listening to music on my way to uni/work and back. Anyway…
Funny story.
Yesterday my mum gets back from work and is all like “John I found something, I think it’s an ipod.” I got slightly excited when she took out a thin version of an iphone. Ipod Touch! W00t. So 20 minutes later, it was on Ebay for a one day listing and I had sold it for $159. Not bad considering I sold a brand new Ipod Touch for $205 on ebay. Anywho…
The interesting thing is that my mum also found a pair of earphones that accompanied the ipod. I didn’t take too much notice of it. Made by some brand I’ve never heard of. I more or less dismissed them. Today, I went running again and I couldn’t stand running without music so I went against what my instincts told me and used a stranger’s earphones. Shut up.
The music quality wasn’t too bad (but then again I don’t have the best judgement of music quality). I got back home and decided to look them up.
Found the website and looked it up. They only had 4 models that looked like mine but only one of them matched the visuals exactly. Ultimate Ears 700. RRP USD$199.99. WHAT. THE. FUCK.
I once told a friend that using a pair of someone else’s earphones is like using a used needle. (Okay…maybe not that extreme.) After telling said person of what I’ve discovered I of course was labeled a hypocrite. My response was “if the needle is gold plated…then sure…why not?”. I hope I don’t get hearing-aids. Get it? Hahaha.
Anywho…I ran for 25 minutes today. 4 laps around Kogarah park. The block is 927m so I ran 3.7km in 25 minutes. It’s a start I guess. Tomorrow I’ll go for 30 minutes. I was running and listening to Immortal Technique, a new artist I have discovered through Reddit. I find I breathe a lot easier when running to a beat. On Thursday I gave up after only 2km.
I lose a pair of earphones, end up finding another pair that’s twice as good.
Funny how that works huh?
If only it can be said about grey hoodies.
Can I call?
Jun 26th
Interesting day was quite interesting.
Started my day off at UNI. Lining up at the Student Center to get a friend’s timetable changed. Ironic that I would be the one lining up to get my timetable changed, since I’ve been doing the timetable changing for the past 3 years or so.
When we actually got to the terminal, the person behind it was a noob. It was a good strategy though, do exactly what the customer tells you to do and nothing more. You tell them to piss off if it’s not possible and that way you get through to the next person in line. If it were up to me, I would probably just through what the customer want out the window and give them what I think is the best possible timetable and only if they are extremely specific try and adjust it to their needs. I find that I save a lot of time doing this, get through more people and end up training up my timetabling keyboard micro. However, since you’re dealing with more customers, you get more frustrations. Ah well, it was only after that we left did I realise I could have simply asked to use the terminal myself to try and “optimise” the timetable. I think I’m quite good at it. Even if it is a menial job, I’m damn good at it.
I digress once again.
We more or less lined up for 40 minutes. It wasn’t too bad I guess, since I’m ever so entertaining but…yeah…must suck for other people. I can’t help but think people listen to my conversations whilst I’m waiting in line. I say some outrageous things sometimes.
Anywho.
Later, we caught up with Steph at Chinatown. Prior to that though I visited CEO karaoke to see if I had left my headphones there, they didn’t have it. I was sad. I have no idea where they could have gone. It means me forking out money to buy another pair and to be honest, I really do not feel like using money on a pair of headphones right now. I could just buy the same pair off ebay but it’s something about upping yourself every time. If your phone breaks you would get a better phone, not the same phone right?
Right.
Anyway, we went “stationary shopping”. Then it was followed by some shopping at IGA. I was pushing the trolley and Steph dumped two bottles of 2L coke into it. I had a sudden realisation and exclaimed:
“Oh shit, does this mean I have to carry everything?!”
It was quite funny cause then this woman next to me began laughing. Men and Women will never be equal.
Anywho, spent some time shopping, went back to uni, then went to SUV to dump food, went to the liquor store to pick up some delicious alcohol.
Once we got back to SUV, I began making jelly shots. I didn’t have a measuring cup and had to make do with using a plastic cup. I obviously put too much vodka into the jelly mixture as the responses I got were
“Dude, how much did you put in it?!”
and
“I can feel my tongue burning”
Lol. My bad.
I skipped like 5 hours or so but I have pictures to sum things up and even a 20 minute video.
Twas fun. I’m so tired right now. Not even close to being drunk.
The Prestige
Jun 24th
By special request.
I’ll humour you.
Since I don’t have my PC any more, I’ve been using WebUI to control utorrent. I initiated a 22gb torrent hoping for it to download offpeak. My father had realised said torrent and decided to force start it. Naturally, it resulted in downloading 22gb onpeak, leaving me with 20% of my onpeak remaining, with half a month to go. Thankfully, TPG now caps at 1mbps, which isn’t too bad. Although I’ll have to pause my youtube videos for them to buffer once it gets capped.
So anywho, the torrent is “Mind Fuck Movies”. Basically movies that leave the audience in a “wtf” stage throughout parts of the movie. Movies like 12 Monkeys, Donnie Darko, Pi, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind etc etc. I decided to watch “The Prestige” again. This is one of the best movies I’ve watched. I thought I’d pick up things I’ve missed during my first viewing but to be quite honest I didn’t. I guess it just wasn’t “mindfuck” enough. I still remember watching it at the cinemas. It was with Fobsquad. I can only remember coming out of the cinema though. I found it rather frustrating yet amusing at the same time. As soon as we exited, you had people who were asking wtf just happened, and then people explaining situations. I personally thought it was quite clear as to what happened. I remember talking to Jase about the movie, one of the few people that don’t find the need to forcefully explain the plot in order to show that they understood it. I kid you not, I’ve experienced movies where the person next to me suddenly gets an epiphany and feels the need to explain it whilst the movie is going on. “Okay dude, you’re not the only person to realise this, stfu and watch the rest of the movie”. I have a problem with people talking in movies. It really shits me.
Anywho.
The thing with Mindfuck movies is that I always find different ways of reading it. But I can’t seem to read it differently for “The Prestige”. I remember writing a blog about it actually and I quoted “Nobody cares about the man in the box”. Okay I just did a quick search through my blog and I can’t find it. Although I did find that I’ve watched Prestige a second time already. So this is actually my third viewing. However, I dod remember writing about it…maybe it was one of those blogs where I wrote…but later deleted. I tend to do that a lot. Most of the time I write a fucking essay at night. Wake up in the morning just to delete it hoping nobody’s read it. I digress. God I love that word. Digress. I digress yet again.
“Nobody cares about the man in the box”.
Am I in a box right now? Or am I out on stage? What is the box? What is the stage? I really can’t think of anything to represent them to be honest.
Let me try.
The box for me is mediocrity. The box is the comfort zone.
The stage is exciting. It’s outside the comfort zone. It’s unknown.
The box is predictable, 8 corners, 6 sides, everything joined together in an orderly manner.
The stage changes. You adjust to the stage. The stage doesn’t wait. The stage doesn’t stop.
Things are only awkward if you make it awkward. Don’t let it be awkward.
That is all.
