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Archive for August, 2006
Coincidence?
Aug 30th
Was watching ‘Everybody Hates Chris’ on my comp yesterday and Chris’s father Julius said something interesting:
"It’s better to have had one good job and lost it, than to never have had one good job at all."
And then later that night I began watching ‘Il Mare’ again, around the 34 minute mark but I only was able to watch it for couple of minutes or so.
It was funny cause the male protagonist said:
"It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
Well, that was just the translation from the Korean so as long as you get the general jist of it it’s all cool.
Hehe I was sort of asking myself before whether I’d rather keep something or risk losing it in order for something better.
It’s like you have bread which is good but you’d want toast which is better but you might burn the bread and not have anything. I love my food analogies.
But you know sometimes you have to take a risk cause if you don’t then you shouldn’t rely other to.
Okay I’m not making sense so I’ll just stop now.
The aftermath.
Aug 27th
How many of you guys have woken up confused?
For the first time in my life I actually fell asleep involuntarily. I was meant to go to sleep but I just somehow fell asleep.
No I’m not talking about "Oh I accidentally fallen asleep in class" and that bullshit I’m talking about actually falling asleep without having an intention to. When you’re in class you go "I’m just gonna lie my head on this desk". That results to sleep but it’s sorta a consequence of putting your head on the desk.
Anyways, I actually fell asleep.
I have no idea what time it was but when I woke up I was like "Hmmm…what the hell…did I just wake up?! Wait a minute…why is there a phone next to me?…(2 seconds later…) Holy shit I fell asleep!!!"
Man I never thought it was possible but you know shit happens. I was pretty damn confused so I need to get it sorted out soon 
But to tell you the truth I was feeling quiet good when I got up I don’t know why.
But to tell you the truth I was feeling quiet good when I got up I don’t know why."Don’t argue. You cannot win. You cannot beat a women in an argument. It’s impossible. You will not win cause men, we are handicapped when it comes to arguing cause we have the need to make SENSE."
I reckon I figured that one out back in Year 5 when every Chinese lesson was me arguing with this chick. I have no idea what we were arguing over but it’s always just the two of us yelling at each other.
I’ll do what I like.
Aug 26th
Marriage is tough, marriage is real fucking tough, marriage is so tough Nelson Mandela got a divorce. Nelson Mandela got a fucking divorce! Nelson Mandela spent 27 years in a South African prison got beaten and tortured everyday for 27 years and did it with no fucking problem. Man had to do hard labour under 100 degree South African heat for 27 years and did it with no problem. He got out of jail after 27 years of torture, spent 6 months with his wife and said "I can’t take this shit no more!"
~ Chris Rock in ‘Never Scared’
That has to be the most hilarious thing I’ve heard all day. But like with all comedy acts you’d have to watch/listen to get a real laugh out of it.
I can’t be screwed writing about USYD open day. Only couple of things that you need to know:
1. It was fun.
2. It was tiring.
3. I got a free balloon.
Edit:
I almost forgot the most IGNORANT thing I’ve heard all day and perhaps all week, maybe even whole month. Damn why not make it the whole fucking year. When I heard it I wanted to slap that woman back to 1977.
Me: *walks up stairs*
Her: *walking down stairs talking to her friend* Pfft all you ever need to know about computers is turning it on and turning it off.
@Rong – No I did not steal it. FREE 
Tomorrow is just another day
Aug 23rd
Hmmm…you know something I always manage to write blogs when I should be studying considering I have a lot to study for tomorrow.
I always manage to find the time to write a blog even though I’m as busy as hell. Why is that so? I guess I suck at prioritising. I should work on that.
I love it when I have the I-don’t-give-a-shit-about-what-you-think-of-me mood. It’s like you know that everybody notices you and you know that they have postive/negative thoughts going through their head but you just don’t care.
I usually get it when I’m happy or when I’m pissed. Generally it’s the latter but every now and again the former comes into play.
Hmm one example of the latter was during that soccer game (this is perhaps the THIRD time I’ve referenced this on my blog) when I chucked a psyche at my "coach" those who was on the team probably still remember and can probably get a laugh out of it. Man…afterwards I felt like crap though.
But yeah…it’s good to do what you want and not care. What I’ve realised is that the more you try and hide something the more likely somebody is going to find out. So why bother hiding at all? Sooner or later somebody will unexpectedly slip their tongue.
I mean like everybody knows right? So why bother?
I guess I’m under the mentality of I-know-that-you-know-but-i’m-going-to-pretend-that-i-don’t-know-that-you-know. In other words…act dumb.
Well you know after tomorrow I’d be relatively happy and also relatively sad. I’ll see what everything takes me. Today was perhaps the first day in a long time where I actually woke up energetic. I probably dreamed about something happy which I can’t remember. I generally wake up feeling energetic after I dream of something nice. I like dreams.
Well you know…just another blog.
I like
Aug 19th
Ignore my last entry, feeling shitty. It’s part of my pre-exam stress build up. Just be glad I didn’t delete it.
I am so going to play Final Fantasy Legends II and Final Fantasy VIII after trials. Those are two games which I never go to finish. I hate leaving things unfinished so I’ll take the time to finish it. Shouldn’t take that long I’ll just play whenever I get bored. Should be fun.
Anybody else wanna join me? *wink*
I sigh too much
Aug 18th
Kev: You sigh by far the most out of anyone I know
Me: *sigh*
There’s so much to sigh about. Sorta reminds me of that scene in Once Upon A Time in China 3 where Wong Fei Hung and his dad begin to sigh one after the other trying to outsigh each other.
Well sometimes I sigh subconsciously I guess I sigh everytime there’s something on my mind.
Well I said that I’d study economics like 2 hours ago. I was actualy meant to start at 7 but you know shit happens. I highlighted couple of paragraphs and closed my eyes thinking about the weeks to come. Then I got up and realised it was 10 go on the computer to type out one essay. I typed out 2 paragraphs and decided to write a blog. Isn’t this fun?
I realised I haven’t written anything "deep" or "meaningful" lately (if not ever) and I guess I can’t be screwed or don’t have anything "deep" or "meaningful" to write about.
What’s there to write about? Life? Death? Love? Hate? I don’t know. Who does know?
Most of you probably aren’t aware of this but I tend to delete any blogs which I find dodgy. I tend to spend like 30-60 minutes on a blog publish it…go to the toilet…realise it’s a piece of shit…comes back and deletes it before anybody reads it. Most of the time I’m appearoffline so people don’t even get the chance to realise I’ve published anything and the next thing you know it’s gone.
I tend to force mself not to write when I’m not in the mood. That’s why I delete stuff. I’m not in the mood so I end up deleting the stuff that I write about written during the time when I’m not in the mood.
I watched Il Mare. Decent movie. Dodgy camera work here and there but I can’t complain, the overall plot was rather nice. It was a rather sad movie but not sad enough for me to cry. Though towards the end it was sorta happy. It’s one of those movies where you don’t want to do anything once you’ve finished watching it. You just want to sit back and absorb everything in before venturing on to complete another task.
Does it feel like it’s always you wanting to do stuff? Like it’s always you wanting to do stuff with other people and never the other people wanting to do stuff with you? Hmmm…I hate it when people don’t care.
I’m prune to giving in. When I don’t give in the other person doesn’t give a rats arse or makes me think that they don’t care. Do people care about anything?! Sure you might just go "Hmm I care about…um…my family…my friends and myself" great. Great fucking work, you care about the stuff that everybody cares about. My biggest problem is that I think too much and care too much. I always tend to think about what other people will think whenever I do something. I try and have the fuck it mentality but it never works. I only have the fuck it mentality when I’m around people who I don’t know. Though I end up regretting it later on thinking "Man…why act like such a prick for?"
I think I just induced myself to be pissed somehow. Meh.
Sometimes I just feel like starting an argument with somebody but that usually fails as the other person ends up not caring.
*sigh*
*blink*
Aug 15th
Let’s see…trial HSC starts tomorrow and ends on the 1st.
It’s funny how I always go through this period of "Oh shit oh shit…I haven’t studied shit" and then I calm down and before the exam I go on MSN or something. I haven’t studied at all tonight and like most time I never get anything in before the exam.
On the 26th will be Usyd Open day. Hope to go there and have some fun, take a look around the place and yeah will be good.
Four weeks after trials everybody will probably be too busy studying for HSC so probably won’t have any time on their hands. 3 weeks after four weeks from trials making it 7 weeks from trials will be the HSC. HSC will be fine none of the stuff are clumped together except for 4u, Sd and then 3u.
One week after HSC will be my bro’s birthday so that should be interesting. I might exploit this opportunity to get out the house 
and one week after my bro’s birthday will be the formal. Should be interesting too.
Two weeks after the formal will be my blog anniversary. Hehe yeah, yeah I know it’s sad, but I feel relatively proud that I’m probably one of the earliest people to have kept a blog and is still updaying it. I had a look on wikipedia and it say that "MSN Spaces" aired early December 2004. Now my first entry was on December 4th 2004 so yeah. Two whole years biatch. Two whole years.
Two weeks later and the HSC results would be released and one week after that would be Christmas.
Then it’ll be a whole new year and I’ll probably end up getting something out of the draw and post it up here, can’t believe I still kept it, it’s nothing interesting but I just found it ridiculously lame/funny/stupid but I do get rather superstitious with certain things and I end up reading it in different ways…making my own interpretations etc. Its just a flimsy piece of paper.
Oh yeah…I’ve been too caught up in everything that I’ve forgotten that it’ll be my mum’s birthday in two days time.
*sigh* So many dates…and yeah two days after trials will be father’s day. Looks like by the end of this year my bank account will be empty again.
I constantly have this image of myself opening a letter revealing that I’ve got like 82 for my UAI or something and then face the shame of telling my parents. Even though I’d be viewing the results online and probably would be able to estimate my UAI through the marks released the day before. I can so imagine people’s display names. I wonder who I’d tell first…after my parents of course. I refuse to put it in my display name. Those who are interested can ask themselves. Though I really am thinking ahead of myself.
So hows your life?
Edited: Happy now Francis?
It’s a mutual thing.
Aug 12th
They say if you think about something long enough and hard enough sooner or later you’ll get it.
I guess some things take time…good things. Great things happen in an instant. I believe I’ve said this many times before and it’s a cliche. Sure why not…maybe it is a cliche.
Though I’m thinking…how do you differentiate a good thing from a great thing? and how do you differentiate long time with short time? I mean it may feel like a long time but in reality it hasn’t really been that long. And what if this great thing happened during the good thing which took time? What if a series of events led to this great thing and without each and every individual situation/event none of it would have happened? What if it’s just a mere coincidence that everything fell into place exactly the way they did?
I can’t hack probability. Everything that we do is against us yet it happens none the less. E.g. The possiblities of hitting a hole in one is like…I dunno…very small…yet you have people doing it all the time. Same goes for the lottary…if everybody in the entire world bought a lotto ticket…theoretically one one person should win due to the extremeties in the minuteness of the probability. Though you have like two or three people winning the lottary in Australia all in the same draw. I find that amazing.
Anything and everything we do will be a turning point for us someway in the future with something totally unexpected as by then we’ll all be like "Man…what are the chances of that happening?" I hate probability I really do. Who gives a crap? If it happened it happened. Though I am surprised at how things happen.
I find it funny how two people have called me a "p.i.m.p". To clarify I am not a p.i.m.p, I will not and do not endorse protistutes for money. What gave people the impression that I’m a p.i.m.p I have no idea.
Some people annoy me for no reason. Some people annoy me on purpose whilst others just do it indirectly. There’s this guy in my grade…I have never talked to him in my life…he’s not in any of my classes…hell I don’t even know his name. Actually I might know his name but not sure if it is his name or not But yeah…he just annoys the shits out of me. It’s like you know the type of people who does something just to piss you off? They do it in a way that makes them appear as if they’re saying "Haha!" in a Nelson sort of way (character in Simpsons). It’s like "Ha! I’m better than you!" and shut you down like a bitch and you have no way of a comeback.
But yeah…he just annoys the shits out of me. It’s like you know the type of people who does something just to piss you off? They do it in a way that makes them appear as if they’re saying "Haha!" in a Nelson sort of way (character in Simpsons). It’s like "Ha! I’m better than you!" and shut you down like a bitch and you have no way of a comeback.Okay it’s like they were all juggling and yeah I was itching a bit. Somebody lost control and the ball rolled to me and naturally I began juggling…the guy tries to get it off me whilst I was juggling but I managed to keep it away from him and then I was about to make the final kick towards them and the guy just nicks the ball off whilst it was in the air! Man that is so annoying…it’s like when your eating and your up to your last bite and you want to treasure the moment of eating the last bit…feel the flavours roll in your mouth and you have somebody else come along and eat it. Yes I was feeling frustrated. Anyways, afterwards somebody lost control yet again and the ball was rolling towards me, I had my side towards the ball and the guy again was chasing after it. It was like a meter away from and he just stops the ball and does a 180 degree turn and at the same time pushing the ball away from me. It’s like dude! you can just bloody stop the ball and turn normally! Okay fine fine…I may someway reflect this particular person in terms of having my bloated ego when it comes to a) juggling b) computers c) matrix. Honestly I can’t hack being second best. I’m not saying the guy was better than me at juggling but it’s just that I’m NOT the best at it. The day I snap will be the day when somebody comes along and shows that they know more about the matrix than I do.
I like what I do and I’ll do what I like
*sigh*
Decisions decisions. Everyday I have to make decisions. I can’t see past any decision I don’t understand even though I want to. Sometimes I wish they were only ONE option.
I’m glad.
Feng shui
Aug 10th
Who believes in this?
Apparently my mum does.
This is in Chinese by the way…
Mum: I looked up fengshui on the internet today.
Me: mhmm
Mum: They say the bed can’t face a mirror…
Me: [thinks] oh god [/thinks]
Mum: …so you have to move beds…
Me: Okay…
Mum: They say if the bed faces the mirror you’ll have bad relationships…so I thought…just in case.
Whilst changing beds…
Mum: If the bed faces the door you’ll have bad health…
Okay…here’s the deal…as far as I can remember when I moved to Kogarah my door has ALWAYS faced the door. When we moved across the street to the house…my bed was right between the mirror and the door so I guess that’s okay. Moved back across the street again…and it was back to facing the door. Finally moving to my current house my bed has ALWAYS faced the mirror.
So what is this? Am I suppose to be dying or be lonely?
Unless the trials is considered a sickness then sure…those years of facing the door has finally had its affects. With the window thingo…hehe…no comment.
