Archive for July, 2006

I need a distraction…

Jul 31st

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

1 comment

Ever watched "Major Payne"? The opening scene he rushes to an injured soldier who has this majorly owned leg…thus Payne, in order to "help" him, breaks his finger in which the soldier screams out "Argh!!!!!! My finger!!!!!!!!!" instead of "Argh!!!!! My leg!!!!!!!!!!"
 
Here’s another example. In the episode of House M.D. where House decides to go on a bet of not taking pain killers, he breaks his own hand in order to keep his mind off the pain in his leg.
 
That’s what I need right now. I need a small insignificant distraction to keep my mind off something bigger which I can focus on after trials =) or after HSC =D
 
I feel that this trials will be more important than the actual HSC itself. I’m sure I’ll do fine in the HSC but when it comes down to internal rankings I just have to get into that top 50%. I don’t really have that high expectations. I don’t want a 99. I don’t need a 99…hell I don’t even need a 95. All I need is a 93 at UNSW or a 95 at Usyd or a 97 at USYD if I can make it into the advanced course or into IT.
 
But yes my target is 98. If I can get into the 99′s then great! But 98 will now be my realistic target.
 
I don’t feel like going overseas any more. Not much to see or do in China. Sure I get to visit relatives but it’s not like I’m close with any of my relatives in China…perhaps my uncle/aunt/cousin but honestly, my cousin has absolutely nothing to say with me, we can’t talk about anything and the only way we actually bond is when we’re playing games with each other. How pathetic. I wouldn’t mind going over to Japan or Europe. But Europe would be a family holiday and Japan is just too bloody expensive.
 
Think I’ll move out just after the Euro holiday :P Leech as much as possible.
 
Talking about leeching…my parents are finally going to return the 300 bucks they borrowed from me. Now my money problems are over :) Even though I never really had a money problem I just, shall we say, like to keep the bank account above a certain amount =p
 
Only 2 weeks left. I just found out I came 4th in SD. *sigh* Just need to own in the trials come first and beat the guy in second place by like 5% and I’ll be okay. It’s doubtful and perhaps the best rank I’ll be in Software Design is 2nd and the more realistic rank is perhaps 3rd. That’s considering the fact that Dennis and Weir both dropped. It’s funny how I’m never top at what I’m supposedly good at.
 
3U and 4U maths I’ll do okay in, however I definately need to get above grade average by a lot in 3u this time. I want to be above 60 in 3u and maintain my top 20 rank in 4u :P Funny how I’m doing better in 4u than 3u and no it’s got nothing to do with tutoring…especially considering the lesson where my mind just wandered off elsewhere.
 
Economics will be a bitch to study for. It’s hugely ironic that I studied around 30 hours worth of eco for my second assessment and end up coming second last in my class and yet I managed to do A LOT better with only 3 hours of day-before studying. I was laughing my ass off. But yeah the essays will definately kill me.
 
English is another subject which will kill me. If my hand doesn’t break after the final essay, consider me lucky.
 
Physics will be another big problem. I understand all the concepts but it’s just that when it comes down to expressing them that proves to be difficult. Yes yes I know I know, I’ve heard way too many "Whoa!!! You came blah?!" or "Did you come blah John?!" or "Didn’t you beast physics this time?" or "Didn’t you OWN physics?" etc etc…honestly…I have no idea how I got what I got though I’m sure I deserved it. I can’t understand how people can say that they don’t deserve something…sure if you don’t deserve it give it to somebody else…[under breath]loser[/under breath].
 
This time it’ll all be theory and I’ll need to revamp my bs skills once more to fill the spaes for physics. Hehe, we enjoy the things we’re good at. I doubt I’ll enjoy SD if I’m coming like last but you know it’s a relatively fun subject to do.
 
I should be studying but I just managed to finish another 3u paper.
 
My little forum is doing quiet well. 24,607 posts…(it’s probably around 27k if including the posts which we’ve deleted :P ) 197 members out of like a possible 206? So it’s not doing bad at all. But there is like 50 or so inactive members who haven’t touched the forum but it doesn’t concern me too much. This forum has lasted longer and more successful than any of the other forums. I don’t really understand how it became so successful but I’d love to throw it into the faces of the people who said it wouldn’t work out. I think I’ll give it a update after the trials. The forum is couple of versions out of date and contain numerious bugs. Hopefully the forum lasts even after the hsc…
 
I like fixing stuff. I love it when things work. How they work is beyond me but lots of things just fall into place by themselves at exactly the right moment…

Nothing suss…

Jul 29th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

1 comment

Since I have a sizeable fanbase (it’s my ego talking) why don’t y’all help me with my profile and ideas for the muckup photo?
 
This is the layout for my profile.
 
Name: John Zhiyong Jiang
Alias:
Profile:
Memorable Moments:
Future Occupation:
Ideal Partner:
Additional Comments:
 
So yes, if you can think of anything just post it in a comment :) More the merrier *winks*
 
Also give me some ideas for what I/we should do in the muckup photo. Please…make it realistic.
 
Anyways…I can honestly say…ignoring the trials…everything is going quiet well :) Nothing upsetting or depressing has happened. Everything’s cool…for now. Just give me a 98 UAI and I’ll be content.
 
Not long now.

My bro is grammatically incompetent…

Jul 22nd

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

2 comments

Bro: I played basketball already!!!
Me: No you haven’t
Bro: Yes I do!
Me: *in a pissed tone* It’s not "Yes I do" it’s "yes I have"
Bro: Yes I have
Me: No you haven’t!
Bro: Mum!!! He tricked me!
Me: No I didn’t
Bro: Yes you are!
Me: *pissed tone* It’s not "yes you are"! it’s "yes you did"
Bro: Yes you did!
Me: No I didn’t. Go play basketball.
Bro: I played already!
Me: No you haven’t
Bro: Yes I do!
Me: *in a more pissed tone* It’s not "Yes I do"!!! it’s "yes I have"!!!
 
My bro is beyond hopeless in terms of language, even more so than me.
 
I’m going to watch Fearless tonight. Get some alone time. Honestly, last night was perhaps the most boring Friday nights I’ve had. It’s like Friday night you expect to do something interesting that’s not school related, whether it’s watching a movie or talking to people but last night was just shit boring. I still managed to go to sleep at 12 though but it wasn’t a reluctant "I’m going to sleep now" it’s more of a "I’m going to sleep cause this is (I am) boring myself to shits".
 
So Fearless, it’s the new Jet Li movie released back in Janauary this year. I quote Wikipedoa:
"Fearless is a 2006 film directed by Ronny Yu and starring Jet Li. It is loosely based on the life of Huo Yuanjia, a legendary martial artist who defeated foreign boxers and Japanese martial artists in highly publicised events, restoring pride and nationalism to China at a time when Western Imperialism was eroding the country."
 
They say you know you’re Chinese when you KNOW that you’re the greatest nation in the world…Damn straight.
 
I should seriously stop hoping for a fun night. It’s pretty similar in getting your marks for exams back. E.g. for my english result I was like "I better get 17" and then I was like "What if I get above 17? 18 perhaps?" which led to "Damn it John, now it’s not going to happen since you’ve thought about it!" which progressed to "Shit, what if I get like 13?" and then the cycle continues. I ended up getting 17 which was a HUGE relief. So I should stop hoping for things to happen.
 
One thing I’ve also realised that it’s so much easier to rely on others rather than relying on yourself. If you were to rely on others there’s no worry as if they fail it’s their problem not yours. I’m not being cynical, I rely on myself all the time, most of the time, I generally can’t rely on anybody else to do anything for me knowing that a) they generally fuck it up b) they don’t do it to my satisfaction . But I have problems relying on myself as well for a) fear that I may fuck it up b) not being able to do it to my satisfaction.
 
"I’m dishonest, and a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It’s the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they’re going to do something incredibly… stupid."
 
The same thing applies on relying on yourself or others.
 
So yes, I’m gonna stop relying on people to do things, if however they do end up doing it then I guess it’s a bonus for me.
 
Also I would like to have another bitch at MSN. It can just go die. You can never know what the other personn is doing and the fact is people prioritise over msn. I do it, you do it, everybody does it but it’s annoying when the other person your talking to takes 5, 10, 20, 30 minutes to reply to a single thing.
 
"the irony Is you rely on me as much as I rely on you to inspire me like you do."
"But I’m always going to make you feel I don’t need you as much as I really need you So you don’t use it to your advantage."
 
Ten brownie points for the person who can tell me what song it’s from and who sang it without looking it up and no there are no hidden allusions…
 
Meh!
 
Edit @Henry:
Yes it’s Eminem. Hope is generally false hope, if your confident about something then there’s no need to hope, if you fail you simply get back up and start again. Hope arises from self-doubt, reassuring oneself there’s still the possibility of success. Doesn’t matter. Don’t listen to me.

Why do good things come in twos?

Jul 17th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

5 comments

Good things always come in twos don’t they? And you end up having to choose between the two which is a bitch. Why can’t you have both? That I’m afraid is not how things work…not in this world anyways…*goes off to day-dream* Just to make things clear I am NOT thinking about what YOU ARE thinking. *grumble grumble* Though that leads to question who "you" is. Is it singular or is it plural? Is it general or specific? Who knows…YOU know. Hehe…*puts on cheesy smile*
 
Anyways. (Yes I realise "anyways" is not a word…shut up.)
 
Okay so…UNSW or Usyd. Let’s get objective first.
 
UNSW:
  • Combined Comp Science and Commerce = 93 UAI (hehe)
  • 4 years full time

USYD:

  • Combined Comp Science (Advanced) and Commerce = 95
  • Allows me to get masters for commerce after 3 years of Comp Science (no idea how that works)
  • Contains a industry experience program WITHOUT having to apply for any scholarships

Okay okay…well just then I just discovered that AI is also covered in USYD so I guess it makes no difference.

 
So from the above it can be seen that USYD is the better option. Though I’ve heard that the science facilities in USYD is a piece of crap and UNSW is better. Though that’s what I’ve heard and personally have not seen either for myself. I guess the second reason I want to go to UNSW is more of a social factor. My phys tutor was like "UNSW is more multicultural whilst more caucasians(whites) go to USYD. Generally people get more westernised when they go to USYD" and I was just sitting there thinking "Shit…white trash". Okay okay, I’m probably just thinking so I convince myself to go to UNSW but honestly USYD is the better option. Honestly, industry experience program? Masters for commerce after 3 years? I am there! Perhaps I should get two masters :) One for Commerce and one for Comp science. Hehe that’s about…7 years of study. It makes the people who do Architecture/Law feel like crap don’t it?
 
Meh, nobody I know is even considering doing Computer Science…bastards.
 
Also got told that in Comp engineering the guy to girl ratio is 8:1 (hehe…*cheesy smile*), so I guess comp science isn’t gonna be that much better. But c’mon I’m a forum admin, I won’t be having any problems…none.
 
This blog hasn’t been what I thought it’d be, but…meh makes no matter. Good things still comes in twos.
 
Oh and Henry…the answer to your previous question two blogs down is no.
 
Remember the pork roll blog? I think I ended it with "to be continued" but I really can’t be screwed making another blog on PORK ROLLS. [Any connotations there Henry?] To make things clear…I picked pork roll (shutup Henry). [grumble] Sooo fucking lame [/grumble]
 
And I will continue to be indirect, hmmph!
 
Edit @ Henry:
I’m grumbling over the fact that whilst other people are like "wtf" you are like "I see…" Argh…the pork roll analogy has two fallacies. One you have to buy the porkroll so that one fails…and two you have to eat it…and I don’t think I’m in much of a rush to dwell into that yet…

Here you go son…a brand new…

Jul 15th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

1 comment

Vacuum cleaner!!!
 
Yes my parents got ME a vacuum cleaner. I say me because I’m the one doing all the vacuum cleaning around here…I guess as long as I’m in the house and my bro is too young, I’ll be doing the vacuum cleaning.
 
Technically they didn’t buy it FOR ME. They bought it cause it was a necessity to the house but they might as well have bought it for me.
 
But yeah it’s a pretty neat vacuum cleaner. It’s Bagless!!! Bagless!!! It’s like worth orgasming over. First time we’ve owned a bagless vacuum cleaner.
 
I plugged it in (hehe get it? Plugged it in? hehe) and turned it on. Man it was pretty damn powerful, a lot more powerful than our previous one which broke, and it’s bagless!!!
 
Well originally my parents wanted me to vacuum clean tomorrow but I thought I just test it out in my room to unleash it’s true power. That was my longest time ever vacuum cleaning my room. I got through most of the coners and crevices (I say most cause I can’t be screwed moving furniture to get to the tough corners :P ).
 
You know what’s the good thing about it being bagless? You can see how much you’ve sucked up!!! Not surprisingly there weren’t much hair. I then vacuum cleaned the study and there were random hairs in the thingo that stores the dust and stuff. Honestly, what do you call it? Since it’s bagless you can’t call it a bag (otherwise defeats the purpose of calling it a bagless vacuum cleaner). So yeah…is it a tube? perhaps a cylinder? or a dust and hair compartment? Who knows…perhaps I shoud check the manual but it’s sooo far away (it’s in a box actually 3 metres away).
 
Hehe vacuum cleaning reminds me the day before the Citizenship ceremony. Spent 1.5 hours cleaning the house. After just 1 day of having a girl in the house I found random LONG hairs lying in the study and more noteably in the bathroom.
 
But yes, I need to finish my job tomorrow morning in unleashing the bagless vacuum cleaner on the rest of the house. But yes it was a 30 second fad. I mean it’s just a thing. Things don’t matter. Whatever you can buy with money don’t matter. Mastercard can only buy so much you know?

A man who’s unsure blames others…A man’s who’s certain blames only himself.

Jul 14th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

2 comments

Angel John (AJ): Aha! I told you so!
Devil John (DJ): You didn’t tell me anything!
AJ: I told you it was a mere coincidence!
DJ: Well at the time it seemed like the most logical answer! And it still does!
AJ: But you know what happened!!!
DJ: Noooot entirely…
AJ: Just admit defeat!
DJ: I still think I’m right…people lie you know!
AJ: People always lie! But still!
DJ: Still what? Your friends can lie as much as your enemies!
AJ: *grumble* *grumble* It was all a coincidence!
DJ: It’s all relative…what may seem like a coincidence to you seemed like a planned task to me! The timing is just too great! Honestly, everything fits perfectly and yet you have to insist it to be a coincidence!
AJ: Well if it was a coincidence then you won’t feel as crap!
DJ: No no no…I won’t feel like crap…John will feel like crap.
AJ: You tactless son of a bitch…
DJ: Why thank you.
John: You guys are all idiots, I’m going to sleep.

Matrix, Reality, Fate and the Self

Jul 10th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

2 comments

Yes I’m extremely bored. You have ONE choice to make here. Take a look at the title. If you want read ahead otherwise simply close this window/tab.
 
Morpheus: If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then ‘real’ is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain
 
Let’s begin with someting "simple" shall we? Reality. How do you know something is real? Ever have someone tell you that something is like a dream? or perhaps surreal? or perhaps that once they wake it’ll all be just a dream? If you can’t distinguish between reality and dreams then how does one distinguish a dream from reality? It’s like when you’re dreaming…you don’t tell yourself "Wow, I’m dreaming again" once you do state that to yourself chances are you’re conscious.
 
Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realise the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you’ll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
 
There’s no such thing as reality, just what we percieve to be true. If I believe that there is a God therefore there is a God nobody can prove to me that there is or isn’t a God. Though God is metaphysical in some sense but we’re not gonna go there. Take a pen for instance. If I believe it is blue then it is blue even if the label says "Red". Though that would involve that the meaning of the word "blue" has been altered in some way or form to make up my definition of blue.
 
Cypher: All I do is what he tells me to do. If I had to choose between that and the Matrix, I’d choose the Matrix.
Trinity: The Matrix isn’t real.
Cypher: I disagree, Trinity. I think that the Matrix can be more real than this world. All I do is pull a plug here, but there… you have to watch Apoc die.
 
This shows how reality is relative, what may exist to be real for one person varies to another. An image may seem different depending on the angle your viewing it or position. It’s like the bottle or two faces pic. Imagine if you would that two people are looking at the image and one can ONLY see the two faces whilst the other can ONLY see the bottle. Both argue what they see is correct and argue that the other is wrong. Who exactly is right? One perception of reality does not undermine or elevate a perception of reality by another. This can also be used to show how the majority may not necessarily be right in certain situations. A different perception of "reality" is needed to fully understand a situation.
 
Cypher: You know, I know this steak doesn’t exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize?
[Takes a bite of steak]
Cypher: Ignorance is bliss.
 
Nothing is sweeter than ignorance. Some people prefer digging every bit of information that they possibly can whilst I would generally prefer to know what I need to know. What you don’t know won’t hurt you. Though as we grow older things become more complicated and sometimes (most of the time) it is best knowing than not knowing (in certain areas).
 
Morpheus: Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?
 
Sometimes I would like to live in my own dream world. The world where everything works though how boring would that be? Imagine if things did work out perfectly, no dramas, no upsets, thus I guess this is the reason why we have dreams in the first place, to compensate for our imperfect reality that we live in.
 
Agent Smith: I’d like to share a revelation that I’ve had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you’re not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You’re a plague and we are the cure.
 
Agent Smith: Did you know that the first Matrix was designed to be a perfect human world? Where none suffered, where everyone would be happy. It was a disaster. No one would accept the program. Entire crops were lost. Some believed we lacked the programming language to describe your perfect world. But I believe that, as a species, human beings define their reality through suffering and misery. The perfect world was a dream that your primitive cerebrum kept trying to wake up from. Which is why the Matrix was redesigned to this: the peak of your civilization.
 
People are idiots. End of Story.
 
Morpheus: Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life.
Morpheus: I know *exactly* what you mean.
 
I don’t like to believe in fate. How can anyone? I don’t like the idea of my whole life to be written down in the stars or stone or whatever other lame analogy they think of. I’m in control of my own life and I can change it to my liking.
 
Morpheus: Throughout human history, we have been dependent on machines to survive. Fate, it seems, is not without a sense of irony.
 
This bit may seem hypocritical though it is not flawed. Morpheus never claimed that he didn’t believe in fate just that he knows what Neo was talking about. Though then what does he mean?
 
Morpheus: I’m trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You’re the one that has to walk through it.
 
Walking is good. Ever had random day dreams about what life would be life if you did something or something in the past has happened in some other way or form? It’s a lot different dreaming about those things than actually experiencing it. What can I say? Shit happens.
 
Oracle: I’d ask you to sit down, but, you’re not going to anyway. And don’t worry about the vase.
Neo: What vase?
[Neo turns to look for a vase, and as he does, he knocks over a vase of flowers, which shatters on the floor]
Oracle: That vase.
Neo: I’m sorry…
Oracle: I said don’t worry about it. I’ll get one of my kids to fix it.
Neo: How did you know?
Oracle: Ohh, what’s really going to bake your noodle later on is, would you still have broken it if I hadn’t said anything?
 
Interesting. My first reaction when I had watched the film was *blink* *blink* trying to process what had just happened. It’s like with a lot of things in real life. E.g. your paying great attention in trying to get something done and somebody just sceams at you "Don’t fuck up" and at that exact moment you do screw up. Who knows. Was it fated?
 
Neo: But if you already know, how can I make a choice?
The Oracle: Because you didn’t come here to make the choice, you’ve already made it. You’re here to try to understand *why* you made it. I thought you’d have figured that out by now.
 
I guess that’s quiet true in some sense. When we’re making decisions we’re not really making a decision we’re merely thinking about why we made the decisison that we’re going to make. (If that made any sense). It’s like when somebody asks you what you would like for breakfast. You think of the possible choices and then pick a choice based on what’s best for you. E.g. you may have picked eggs over bacon because you’re on a diet or something. We can’t see past any choice we don’t understand thus we need to understand the choices and it’s options before knowing why we made the decision.
 
Neo: Well, that didn’t go so well.
Morpheus: Are you Certain the Oracle didn’t say anything else?
Neo: Yes.
Trinity: Maybe we did something wrong.
Neo: Or didn’t do something.
Morpheus: No, what happened, happened and couldn’t have happened any other way.
Neo: How do you know?
Morpheus: We are still alive.
 
Ahh…perhaps one of my favourite quotes in the movie. How can anything happen in any other way if it has already happened? I tend to get sick of people when they go "What if this…what if that…". No regrets. If you think you made a wrong move work on how you can make a better move in the future. No point in bitching about how you COULD have done something else to make things better. Fact is things CAN’T get any better or worse, things just happen the way that they do. You can’t alter the past but you can adapt to the present.
 
AgentSmith: The great and powerful Oracle. We meet at last. I suppose you’ve been expecting me, right? The all-knowing Oracle is never surprised. How can she be, she knows everything. But If that’s true, then why is she here? If she knew I was coming, why didn’t she leave?
[sweeps plate of cookies off table]
Agent Smith: Maybe you knew I was going to do that, maybe you didn’t. If you did, that means you baked those cookies and set that plate right there deliberately, purposefully. Which means you’re sitting there also deliberately, purposefully.
 
Assuming that fate exists then EVERYTHING is predetermined. The way we dress, the time we wake up, the time it takes us to urinate. There exists no choice. However, as the Merovingian puts it "Choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without." Always a good thing to note down. Though if you think about it, it is true. Choice is an illusion. How much choice do we really have?
 
Oracle: Do you know what that means?
[points to a banner]
Oracle: It means know thyself. I wanna tell you a little secret, being the one is just like being in love. No one needs to tell you you are in love, you just know it, through and through. 
 
Nobody can tell you who are you. You need to justify yourself through your actions. In the end you need to define yourself through your actions, no matter how good a person you are on the inside but if you’re an asshole on the outside NOBODY will appreciate the person you are on the inside.
 
Mouse: To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human.
 
Do you know what YOU want? It can’t get any simpler. Know what you want…seize it. May be your only opportunity, may be your last. Just take it.
 
Agent Smith: Why, Mr. Anderson? Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting? Do you believe you’re fighting for something? For more that your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace? Yes? No? Could it be for love? Illusions, Mr. Anderson. Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose. And all of them as artificial as the Matrix itself, although only a human mind could invent something as insipid as love. You must be able to see it, Mr. Anderson. You must know it by now. You can’t win. It’s pointless to keep fighting. Why, Mr. Anderson? Why? Why do you persist?
Neo: Because I choose to.
 
Believe it or not I actually have this speech memorised as Steven and Alan have realised the hard way. I’m sure I can somehow relate it to the self *whistles*. But yes, people do stupid things…why? Because they can or they choose to or perhaps they do it because they want something that causes them to do stupid things. What can I say? Doing stupid things sometimes is good. I do stupid things all the time, though I have my limits and my definition of stupid probably varies to yours. Sometimes we do things without knowing why we’re doing it. It’s like your body just does it out of instinct, there’s no why or how…just do.
 
Neo: I just have never…
Rama-Kandra: …heard a program speak of love?
Neo: It’s a… human emotion.
Rama-Kandra: No, it is a word. What matters is the connection the word implies. I see that you are in love. Can you tell me what you would give to hold on to that connection?
Neo: Anything.
Rama-Kandra: Then perhaps the reason you’re here is not so different from the reason I’m here.
 
Now this has nothing to do with any of the above. I just felt like chucking it in here cause it’s a good line.
 
Merovingian: It is remarkable how similar the pattern of love is to the pattern of insanity.
 
And perhaps this one as well :)
 
Okay, that is all.

Week 28

Jul 8th

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

1 comment

Wow would you look at that. It’s the 28th week. 28 just happens to be my favourite number. You add the single digits of my birthday together and you get 28 (if you repeat it twice again you’ll also get my birthday…think about it). I used to live in number 28, and had some memorable moments there. 2 and 8 appears in pretty much everything though the probability of any two numbers appearing in anything is pretty high so I’m not going to dwell into that.
 
What day does the week begin on? Sunday or Monday? Originally back in China I always thought of Monday as the beginning of the week but due to the TV guide beginning on the Sunday I’ve become westernised into thinking that the week begins on a sunday. But for this entry lets just assume it started on the Sunday as it’ll be pretty lame if I started writing about this week when it hasn’t even come to a close. Well technically it hasn’t but it is the last day of the week and as far as I’m concerned I have one more thing to do tonight…and as far as I’m concerned it probably doesn’t concern anybody else bar one.
 
Well nothing much happened on Sunday morning. I didn’t do much, did a bit of studying and a bit of nothing. But yes, I did get a call from somebody asking me to fix their comp. I agreed and decided to go on Monday arvo. I burnt copies of a slipstreamed, integrated copy of WinXP Pro and made a copy of Office 2003. It took around 1.5 hours or so to get it all done but I did do some maths whilst it was processing. Multitasking is always good.
 
You know I’m amazed when things actually work out to some extent the way I want it to. I committed something with a motive and for once it didn’t get slammed into my face. So on Monday I did more maths in the morning and headed off in the arvo to fix that guys computer. I sorta feel guilty cause I didn’t really fix their main problem which was unable to connect to the internet. Though I did manage to do a successful format, partition and installation of Windows and Office.
 
And let’s just say what happened after I left is something which not many people knows about and something I don’t feel like opening saying to EVERYBODY that reads this. Only 4 people knows. But you know like all things, eventually everybody will know, though there is no harm in people knowing.
 
Let’s say for the next 3 days my the peaks of the day included a phone that rang nearly out of batteries due to over use, world cup and lack of sleep.
 
Also on Tuesday, I had SEC. Okay here’s a note. DO NOT go to a 7 hour long SEC session with only FOUR hours of sleep. It’s not cool. Class had actually started at like 9:10 due to fact that SEC wasn’t even open when we got there. For the first 3 hours I lived. I for the first time in my life I sat next to Jaja. The lesson involved paying her out, questioning her true gender and of course learning. After the first three hours we went to this Vietnamenese restaruant and had lunch there, the entire class plus Daniel. We had fun. Spent like 1 hour there and ended up starting class 30 minutes later. After lunch I felt like going to sleep. Generally I feel all sleepy after lack of sleep after eating food. So yeah I was sorta really really tired. So yes I was pretty glad to be going home. When I caught the train it was like 4:30. Meh!
 
But yes, there’ve been two climaxes this week. One on Monday and one yesterday. Though the one yesterday involved the WHOLE day to perhaps equal what had happened in 1.5 hours on monday and perhaps the 3 hours of aftermath. Perhaps I’m exaggerating perhaps I’m not, it makes no difference.
 
So yesterday (this is something that I can actually tell :P ) I went to SEC, arrived at 10 to 9 to realise that the floors had been locked. Thus no access to the classrooms. After spending 30 minutes waiting Daniel called up Nick (the principal) and was told that they had thought it to be tomorrow, what a lame excuse. So yeah we headed off to Gloria Jeans for some coffee and then went to CAPITOL. I have to say it felt quiet queer at first but then it was pretty good to say the least. Too bad my scanner isn’t connected to the computer so I can’t scan you the sticker photos :P Man…I’m slowly accepting the asian status quo. First karaoke, now this.
 
So yeah, when we got back we were 30 minutes late. Daniel was pretty pissed but we just had 30 minutes off our exam time. No biggie there. I realised that I might have to jig to meet up with Kevin at 12. So I ended up doing 1 essay and then leaving the class FOREVER. Gave Daniel a handshake and said my goodbyes. I hate saying Goodbyes, it just seems so lame. I hate goodbyes. I don’t like good things to end. I can’t say that SEC was always good but you do tend to miss things when they don’t exist anymore huh? I hate goodbyes. I suck at saying goodbyes. I hate goodbyes.
 
I left for Greater Union, bought subway and watched Pirates of the Carribean 2. I thought it was a pretty good movie. Though the only down side was the rather abrupt ending and the fact that they over did some things like the crew of the Flying Dutchman. After movie we headed off to galaxy played three games of pool and went to Mr Gu. Mr Gu was as usual.
 
After that we headed off to Auburn and went to the RSL club. When Henry arrived I could NOT recognise him until he was like "Hi guys!". The hair and glasses…one step closer in becoming an emo.
 
Jason’s dinner was awesome. We just ate, talked, ate, talked and ate. What more can you ask for? I did something extremely embarrassing again.
 
I was getting some icecream and theres the tub of water you use to clean the icecream spoon. I thought that was syrup or something due to the colour!!! So there was this women next to me and I handed her the spoon and then got the little thing inside the "syrup" and toped a little on my icecream. I tasted it and it had like no flavour so I was getting a bit suss. Asked people what it was and my reaction was like "Ooooooh…shit". It was all good, we sang happy birthday :) (sort of) gave the present and made our way home.
 
I got home took a shower and when I took off my clothes I could smell the smoke. It was like soooo foul. I hate it when that happens. Now it’s all in the wash. I hate smokers.
 
But yes…tonight I’ll be waiting for the final acknowledgment. Those who are going "wtf" don’t worry it doesn’t concern you in any way or form. I just feel like writing this done so back off if your thinking "if he doesn’t want to say it why bother writing it?".
 
I need to be more direct at times but it’s sooo fun being indirect! Though sometimes it can be quite frustrating as I can’t make myself any more direct.
 
Edit Sunday 9 July 2006 4:46pm:
Yesterday/This morning is perhaps in some sense…I don’t know…extremely weird/good/awkward/frustrating/fortunate/glad/relieved/happy
Yep, that sums it up pretty good. Didn’t expect to turn out this way but you know shit happens!

meh

Jul 2nd

Posted by John Jiang in WCEXO

4 comments

I just finished watching "Cheaper by the Dozen". I think my bro is sick, he was sniffing throughout the whole movie. I also tucked him in after the movie :) Think I might get Cheaper by the Dozen 2 and watch that as well :P
 
I like to have an occassional pay out of myself and the time has come.
 
*during Maths*
Alan: People who write blogs because they are socially inept (paraphrased)
Steven: ahaha…wait…doesn’t John have a blog?
Me: *smirks*
 
*during Maths…at Gu’s)
Ying: What’s the difference between Emo and Angst?
Jason: *provides definition of the two*
Me: I’m not emo…
Kevin: Yeah…well you are angst
Me: meh
Kevin: Well, you listen to linkin park…eminem…you write a blog…
 
Well those are the only two I can think of right now.
 
Argh stupid Jesse.
 
Anyways, here’s my "You know you’re a blog whore when:" thingos for this very space. Note down the ones that apply to you.
 
You know when you’re a blog whore when:
 
01. You "know of" either Jesse, Sally or Siobhan without having met them in real life or met them in general.
02. You check back everyday to see if I’ve updated.
03. You check back everyday to if there are new comments.
04. You perv at the photoalbum.
05. You not only read every comment but also follow through to their space/profile.
06. You refer to my blog in real life.
07. You talk about my blog.
08. You bitch about my blog. (ha! the irony!)
09. You’ve read every entry since you started reading.
10. You’ve read EVERY entry EVER. (I doubt anybody has…if you have then I should be fearing for my life right now)
11. You laugh at what I write in my blog whilst not infront of the computer. (I shit you not…this has happened to someone…better not embarrass them)
12. You notice references to Eminem, Linkin Park or Matrix in my blog.
13. You check up on every update I make; however show no evidence that you have…(damn lurkers)
14. You think I’m emo/angst but at the same time cannot help yourself in clicking that shiny star next to my name
15. You found yourself distraught after discovering you have to sign-in in order to view my blog
16. You visit my blog during school times
17. You visit my blog late at night (why on earth is there always some random going on my blog at like 2am?!)
18. You somehow begin to notice the smaller things in life… (seating arragements anyone?)
19. You got all down knowing somebody has commented before you
20. You know there’s something deeper than just pork/chicken rolls.
 
0 – 5 You, my friend, are normal. But then again I don’t like normal people. So you suck.
6 – 11 You’re those types of people who check up every now and then telling yourself you won’t comment and ends up commenting cause you’re a tool
12 – 17 You are the egotistical type who think you are so much better than everybody else but in the end you are just insecure visiting everybody’s blogs perving at the photoablum
18+ You…I have no words to describe you. You are the type that brings a gun to the formal, the type that cries yourself to sleep and end up cutting yourself at the realisation of losing one mark in an exam. Please don’t hurt me.
 
That’s it for me tonight.