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The Hot 30 Went too far…
Feb 28th
Ever since Kyle and Jacki-O left the Hot 30, it’s all be down hill from there. They change hosts as often as my Windows crashes (gross exaggeration and you probably won’t get it).
But today, that was the turning point for me. I can take their stupid gigs and lame ass jokes but today was too much.
Let me expalin.
They have this gig called "Evolution" which is simply two songs up against each other but here’s the twist, supposedly the artists of the two songs are the same except one is old school and the other is "new school". If that isn’t lame I don’t know what is maybe perhaps Steven, but even Steven can’t pull that off.
Now you might be thinking "Big deal". Okay it’ll be fine if it was something like Backstreet Boys’ song from 20 years ago with a recent song, I’m cool with that but it’s not cool when they actually get the Song name WRONG and the artists happen to be different.
Can you guess what I’m enraged about?
The Artist was suppose to be Linkin Park and Fort Minor. I don’t know how or why, but seriously Fort Minor is NOT Linkin Park and Linkin Park is not Fort Minor. That’s like saying Darren Hayes is Savage Garden and that Rob Thomas is Matchbox 20. Alright, I mean sure you can argue that Mike Shinoda was from Linkin Park but that doesn’t mean all of a sudden Linkin Park decided to change their name to Fort Minor whilst at the same time kicking out Chester, Joe, Brad, Rob and Dave (yes I had to actually look up the last 3 cause I had no idea…slap me for not knowing). Linkin Park is known for Chester’s screems and Mike’s rapping so I hardly think Fort Minor has "evolved" from Linkin Park as the people from Hot 30 like to put it. I actually like Fort Minor, but it’s just the fact that they say the two are somehow related to each other. Sure Mike did create Fort Minor but the two artists/bands are not in any way related. It’s like me starting a company and then my brother starting a company and then stating that the two companies are somehow linked.
That’s the first point (yes there’s more). The second bit that gave me the absolute shits is when they got the name of the song wrong! It was like "Tonight it’s New School ‘Where’d you go’ by Fortminor against Old School ‘Closer to the Edge’ by Linkin Park"
What the shit is Closer to the Edge?! Right after they said the song name they played a sample of the song and when they got up to "Closer to the Edge" it was the bit where Chester starts to shout "I’m one step closer to the edge!" My guess is that they do not have the intellectual knowledge to look up Linkin Park’s first single on google but instead tried to guess the song name from the chorus. Good work shitheads.
By the way the song is called "One Step Closer".
I feel so much better now.
So the fun begins
Feb 24th
Finally, another week gone. This has been by far my longest week this term.
It feels so good I can’t even remember any of that angst.
Well on Wednesday, I bought myself a battary charger and 4 AAA battaries. Cost me a decent amount. In the end I just bought it not caring what the costs were. It takes around 4 hours to charge 4 AA battaries. There was a 15 minute charger but it cost a significant amount more, though in terms of time saving it should be worth it. While I was at it I also bought the "Whem I’m Gone" single by Eminem…my first ever single.
I feel all spoilt after I buy something for myself. If I were to buy it for someone else I feel good that the money is going into somewhere worthwhile, when I buy something for myself it’s like that I’m using money simply for self satisfaction, it really isn’t a good feeling (to me anyways). I guess that’s only of them reasons I rarely buy anything for myself. If I can live without it I don’t need it. Like my earphones, there insulation is gone revealing the wires, if any one of those wires were to break the earphones won’t break, but I think I’m going for a record here, earphones generally last around 3 months with constant use mine has lasted around 1 year and 4 months. Even if they do break I probably won’t dig out the money to buy another pair but simply use a spare pair in my draw (around 3-4 of em).
Yesterday was extremely hectic for me. Had to do my themes for Hamlet, think up questions for the Dowdel interview and manage to do some Gu’s homework.
Though I don’t know why, but the following days I’ve had pretty good sleeps, as in I was able to wake up without struggling, everything was fine.
So today, probably one of the busiest day for me throughout the entire week.
First up Dowdel interview…
It lasted 10 minutes and after listening to my own voice I just realised how much I hate it. I’m really camera shy. I hate taking pictures unless it’s sorta forced where I just put on a smile. When I realise that there is a camera nearby I look away and pretend to be normal and when the photo developes you get a very unnatural me. Though when I get caught off guard you get a really retarded me. Speaking of me, my photo was in the 2002 Year book during the soccer clinic, I’ll upload it here (not that you guys want to see a picture of me). Funny thing was I wasn’t even sure that it was me. I was thining "Oh my god! Is that me?!" I turned to Steven and Tony and asked them and as usual they were no help making it seem that I just said the dumbest thing I could. It wasn’t until later that Kevin told me that I was in the Year Book. Back on topic, so yeah my voice sounded really unnatural. I really hate it, and can’t imagine how people cope with it at all.
Nothing really happened afterwards, I wasn’t that nervous interviewing Dowdel not as nervous as I was waiting in line at the Department of Immigration and Multicultural Affairs.
So as some of you may know by now I also had a interview rather than being the one doing the interview. My citizenship interview was at 3pm. It’s really amazing when people realise that I’m not Australian Citizen. It’s as if such a thing wasn’t possible. Well I’ll be Chinese for several more months until my ceremony. I was nervous, very nervous, and when I get nervous I tend to inflict pain on my, usually the side of my thumb, during basketball games I tend to end up with a bleeding thumb. That’s how extreme it was and the stupid thing is, I don’t even realise that I’m doing it. I was walking to the place today and suddenly realise that I was scraping the skin on my thumb with my nail, it was all red and skin was coming off. I was pretty stressed out.
After waiting 30 minutes for my card to be called out I began walking to my designated stand. At first I was like "Let’s hope its a hot chick sitting behind that barriar" but then I thought actually let’s not hope that. Well at least I was satisfied, it was some post midaged asian looking woman. I was pretty happy, I don’t feel comfortable with some white chick who may not be all that considerate. I cbf talking about what actually happened during the "interview" but yeah I would be expecting a letter in around 4 weeks and another in about 4 months. Go me.
I then rushed to Central, bought a ticket and then caught a train to Gu’s. I sorta had to gamle, on the platform there were like two trains, one stopped at Redfern, Burwood, Strathfield and the other stopped at Redfern, Ashfield, Strathfield. They were just sitting there so I wasn’t sure which one to catch. I hopped on the Ashfield but then got off and then hopped onto the Burwood but then changed my mind again. The Ashfield was also airconed and I went "Screw it, I’m already late, might as well catch the air-con train". I got to Gu’s 10 minutes past 4.
*sigh* Got SEC tomorrow (yay! /sarcasm) and Jess is chucking a pysche over the Selway thread.
I’m not angry…you just aggrovate me.
Feb 21st
You know everywhere I go there is always at least one person who will piss me off. I dunno, am I like a piss magnet? Have I got a sign on my head that shouts "Piss me off"? Okay I might be exaggerating a tiny little bit…fine…perhaps a lot but its true. Perhaps the only subjects where I’m safe is Physics and Software Design, the rest I can get frustrated. Not going to go into any detail whatsoever as I wouldn’t want to bitch about people do I?
Anyways, today was Kevin’s birthday. Like any other day, life went on, as usual nothing much happened, just like every other birthday expereince (excluding the "others"). I was actually planning to get him something…perhaps something with Cathrine Z in it, but yeah not committed enough to actually get the thing going. So selfish of me.
Tomorrow will also be Siobhan’s birthday. Now most of you won’t know who she is, so I might as well explain. She’s some Queenslander Chick that I know (somehow) and we’ve never actually met. Probably the longest "online" friend whom I had. We chat every now and then but yeah, I’m actually amazed it lasted this long. Anyways, happy birthday to her. I have no idea why I mentioned this, but what the heck, it was on my mind.
The forum has gone off to a pretty good start…I think. For those of who you who are living under a rock please visit http://milk.anoxs.net. It’s the Sydney High forum so anybody else…go away…I mean it…just kdding.
I can’t stress this enough, DON’T bother registering if your not going to post and if you are going to post DON’T spam as I will be deleting spam mercilessl disregarding who posted it.
Finally, I’m proud to say that after perhaps 6 years or so (can’t recall) I’m finally getting back my own room! Yay for me. But now I have two beds in my room, I guess twice the fun huh? Nothing suss. I don’t feel that much special and ironically, such a thing has not gotten me all high. Steven still recalls the time that I went all giddy from discovering a hidden pocket in my jacket. I guess this is another small step to independance.
My grandma moved to the room at the back of the house and my bro took over her room. He now has a double bed and he’s only 6. Remember when I said my bro is ahead of me? I might have understated that claim.
Email (Who needs IMs?)
Feb 17th
"Hey John,
Is everything alright? You’re last blog sounded… "bad" to say the least and you haven’t updated in days so I guess it’s not good. What’s going on? If you want to talk about it, I’m here.
Concerned,
Jesse"
I feel all special now. Though it would’ve been much better if Jesse was a girl…and was hot. 
To put it short, I had an angsty week. It wasn’t as extreme as "Craaaaaaaaaaawwwwling iiiiiiiiinnn mmmmyyy skkkkiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnn" but more on the lines of "one thing I tried so hard". Get me? If I ever reach the former, oh shit man, stay away from me.
Deep down inside I have a hatred for instant messaging. I use it so I really shouldn’t complain. But sometimes instant messaging just pisses me off. I mean seriously, signing in as "Away" is fine with me. I don’t have that big of a problem if it takes you several hours to reply but heck you were "Away" right?
Probably the biggest thing that just gives me the shits is when people reply with "lol" and nothing else. It’s okay if you say something later but a simple lol is just not good enough. Do it in real life, I dare you and see how many friends you’ll have by the end of the week.
Example:
Person A: I tried looking up the book you recommended but couldn’t find it.
Person B: lol
Also people tend to use people. Okay fine, I admit I do it too though I prefer not to. But I was browsing through this one particular chatlog like a LONG time ago. It was simply filled with requests, they want to be mod, want a game, want help with a particular question AFTER the exam and as most will know I hate discussing exams after the exam.
Anyways, I got things to do, stuff to go through and can’t be screwed doing SEC homework after what happened last week.
Are you honest?
Feb 17th
Hamlet: Ha, ha! Are you honest?
Ophelia: My lord?
Hamlet: Are you fair?
Ophelia: What means your lordship?
Hamet: That if you be honest and fair, your honesty should admit no discourse to your beauty.
Ophelia: Could beauty, my lord, have better commerce than with honesty?
Hamlet: Ay, truly; for the power of beauty will sooner transform honesty from what it is to a bawd than the force of honesty can translate beauty into his likeness. This was sometime a paradox, but now the time gives it proof. I did love you once.
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Shakespeare is pretty interesting once you actually understand it. Though I didn’t find Macbeth or Othello that interesting, and at the time of reading "The Merchant Of Venice" I couldn’t even understand the text. I knew what was happening though the overall understanding wasn’t too clear.
Though in Hamlet, I still have trouble understanding the language, though it’s clearer than before.
Anyways, the above dialogue occurs after Hamlet’s famous "To be or not to be" speech. I’m still not sure whether or not if its a soliloquy as there were other actors on the stage and not sure if they were able to hear him.
Anyways, by the logic above, I would assume that more beautiful women are more deceitful using it against men. Chicks certainly hold some powerful shit (metaphorically). I guess its harder to say no to a pretty face and we all just get enveloped in it.
Tony needs tutoring
Feb 8th
Yes Jesse, I did swallow a bitter pill. I was planning to write an email but what the heck might as well write it here for all to see. We had a forum back in Year 10 (I was admin 
) but then after several months that closed down. It was only for our grade. After a while sometime last year another one was hosted (when I wasn’t Admin ) but that died even quicker. Then near the end of last year somebody else created a portal with a phpbb forum was set up but that died faster than it started. I was looking along the lines of something for the whole school and something which people can contribute to. One of the reasons these things have failed is that nobody took the interest to be bothered posting anything. The first forum I helped set up was actually quiet successful though the other 2 admins wanted to use IB, meaning registering AGAIN and I guess nobody could be bothered posting to get their post count up.
) but then after several months that closed down. It was only for our grade. After a while sometime last year another one was hosted (when I wasn’t Admin ) but that died even quicker. Then near the end of last year somebody else created a portal with a phpbb forum was set up but that died faster than it started. I was looking along the lines of something for the whole school and something which people can contribute to. One of the reasons these things have failed is that nobody took the interest to be bothered posting anything. The first forum I helped set up was actually quiet successful though the other 2 admins wanted to use IB, meaning registering AGAIN and I guess nobody could be bothered posting to get their post count up.I felt like deleting yesterdays blog but then I thought, 3 comments might as well keep it. By the way Ben, just scroll down on my blog and press the stop button, that might help.
Anyways, moving on to the point of this entry.
They (fob squad) were trying to start up gossip again with Kenny as the leader and Tony his right hand man. Afterwards this short convo occured between Tony, Alan and I.
Me: So Tony…who do you like? Oh wait…you don’t go to tutoring!
Tony: *smiles/smirks*
Alan: That is so fucking depressing. (He’s referring to the fact that we require tutoring to meet PEOPLE of the opposite gender. Just to clarify.)
Yes it is, but it’s also true.
Edit: I’m not a newb Jesse. I’m aware of all that.
F*ck, stop shutting me down…
Feb 7th
Mr Dolan was talking about forming school societies in class and I thought it was a pretty good idea. Though some of the societies suggested were quiet lame such as an Economy Society, 99.9 UAI Society and yeah those are the only two I can be bothered to remember. But seriously, it got me thinking.
I mean, after watching American TV and Japanese Anime you alwas hear of these Science Clubs, Maths Clubs and you get the picture. In our school there are no clubs except for that Islamic thing which I to this day still have no idea what the hell its about. Perhaps if I actually bothered to attend one of its seminars I might have a fair idea though that would first mean getting interested.
So I was thinking, why not form a computer club I’m good at computers. I sorta have a plan worked out in my head though whether or not its achievable is a different matter.
I was thinking of having a forum which will then have a portal extended to it…somehow. Within the forum would be computer related stuff along with others. I was thinking, hardware support, software support, programming, customising windows, poll station, general discussion, game room, school help, exam rants, and yeah the list goes on. So its pretty much going to be an everything forum though the focus is around computers. Having suggested it to two people I got what I expected, pessimism.
The arguments for why it would fail is predictable. I however, do not have the charisma to debate over it.
I am thinking about actually talking to Dolan about it tomorrow and also Dam as to whether such a thing would be possible and more importantly if it will be successful. Yes I am being serious! F*ckers.
I was thinking about doing fortnightly or monthly meetings where whoever can be bothered simply get into the computer labs or something and then discuss ideas for the club. A licence to use Invision Board is also costly so I was thinking about Fundraising by selling chocolates to get enough money to purchase a licence.
Possibly hold a meeting sometime to see if anyone if actually interested, and get as many people to register to the forum and then actively use it and also have notices in the Mango Sheets promoting the Club. It’s all been thought through.
Apart from the pessimistic reactions of the two people, they also had another similar view on the idea, the notion that it would add to the stereotype of being a "computer geek".
My response? And I quote…
"personally i don’t get a shit about what other people think"
I mean seriously, who cares that you made it onto the merit list, who cares if you’re going to get 99.9 for your UAI, who cares if your the friendliest person in the school, if you don’t get the recongition of your peers all that counts to is nothing. Let’s all do GPS sport for Awards Scheme! Let’s join second grade so we can get braiding! I haven’t said it before but I’m saying it now, it’s really pathetic how some people do something simply for the sake of getting something in return. The system doesn’t work. And here you have people telling me that I would be called a geek for taking the initiative to start something NO ONE has thought of? I seriously would like to be thought of as the person that did more than just giggle my High School years away, the type that spend recess or lunch in the libarary, the type that only did something for the sake of getting something back in return. If you don’t want to do something don’t do it, don’t give a half-arsed effort expecting the full reward.
Now…I may fail but I will fail with the realisation that I have tried. With every failure, we’re one step closer to success. I would rather try and fail rather than not try and continue to remain unnoticed.
Idols..
Feb 7th
Okay, people have idols right? Though some of you may be rolling your eyes thinking "Pfft yeah right, the only thing I idolise is my d…" Since the majority of my readers are males, I guess I can be more crude and dirty or perhaps more me.
So anyways, moving on. It’s really amazing how some people are extremely hypocritical. I mean, everyday, somebody ought to say that Eminem sucks or they hate Linkin Park or that Matrix is lame. They believe it’s such a strong insult. Although those aren’t the real assholes, the real assholes are the one going "Woooo, are you going to take that?"
Sometimes I get so fed up that it’s no use trying to get the other person to realise that they trully are being idiotic. The worst thing that they can possibly do is simply laugh it off once you shove it in they face and act like they don’t care.
It’s easy to change one’s ideology, but difficult to change one’s belief.
You maybe wondering where the hypocritical point comes in…I honestly don’t know and lost myself up there. I just know they are and yeah I can’t think of any good examples without targetting a specific individual.
So anyways, back to my main point. The former is simply to get something off my chest. Bloody idiots. Anywho…some of you may have heard of "The Japanese School Teacher" – a.k.a Azrael. He has his own website where he writes his editorials (I guess it does sound better than blog huh?). I’ve pretty much read all his stuff and I’ve got to say, he is now added to my list of idols. Apart from the fact that he’s black (yes he is) there are more reasons for me to like him (not including the fact that he makes references to Linkin Park and Matrix every now then) such as his way of thinking. Also, he is one hilarious person, the thing’s he write is absolute 100% classic, not something you’ll find everyday.
The funniest thing I read yesterday was this:
"When she gets you alone and asks you what you’re feeling, stick your hand in your pocket and respond with "my left nut." Then ask if she’d like to share that experience. Basically, the less you open up to people, the less chance they have to hurt you."
That’ll be one lesson I’ll never forget. Might even try it sometime, if I’m willing to risk getting slapped in the face.
I guess it’s cause we share similar values except only he can express it better, with added humour and as we all know EVERBODY prefers humour over seriousness.
I’m going to stop here. Sorry if I’m being a bit vague in this post but what the heck.
P.S. If you’re reading this Kelvin…we all know your the first to find out about his site so I think you deserve a cookie.
Not that topic again…
Feb 5th
Yesterday I was watching Pearl Harbour with a friend yesterday on TV and there was a sex scene. My dad who was at the dinner table turns to me and says "What are they doing?" I reply "You tell me" with him exclaiming "Nah, I don’t know." One would think how I was conceived. But on all seriousness, the timing of the question wasn’t particularly great considering only couple minutes ago we were talking about her father as being strict regarding these sort of things (who was at the dinner table staring at the tv). Another overprotective father I guess. So my response was okay. Though I probably should have just said "They are stripping each other and will be committing in sexual intercouse which I’ve been legal to do for 1 year and 5 months." That should raise some eyebrows along with some "wtf-looks".
Today I was lying on my bed after dinner and suddenly my grandma just walks into the room and tells me that my mother was calling for me. I walk into the kitchen thinking that she’s planning to tell me to take out the trash or some chore…
Mum: What year is Person 1 in?
Me: Year 10
Mum: *rambles on*
Mum: So what year is Person 2 in?
Mum: So what year is Person 2 in?
Me: Year 11
Mum: And person 3 is also in year 11?
Me: yes
And here it comes…
Mum: Out of the three which has the best personality?
I then I start asking questions to questions like "what do you mean by personality?" and "what do you mean by best?" Her response? "Like which one (personality) suits you?"
That is one big WTF. I just said the name, she gave a I-knew-it-look and I got out of there.
*sigh* I think I’m going through a phase. *pops on some Linkin Park*
