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Archive for August, 2005
To not know about our past is to not know ourselves
Aug 29th
History. It’s actually an interesting subject. Though they teach the most boring topics here in Australia. Seriously, Australia have the most boring history ever. The most significant event has occured during the past century and nobody really gives a damn past that. I mean I hardly care about the effect of WW1 or WW2 on Australia. It didn’t suffer as much as the other countries.
But anyways, I find Chinese and English history fascinating. I don’t really care about modern history but ancient history is pretty interesting. I also wouldn’t mind studying about the Romans or the Greeks, now those are interesting. Pfft, what the fuck am I saying? I don’t even do History!
Well, it all started in Economics, where I mentioned that the movie "Alexander" was the most boring history movie I’ve ever watched with Steven trying to again ‘bring me down’ by questioning "How many history movies are there?!" Well now, there’s "Attila the Hun", "Joan of Arc", "Troy", "Alexander", "King Arthur" and I’m pretty sure there are moe. Now you may argue that Troy and King Arthur may not fall under the categories of HISTORY I do not agree.
Who writes history? Why the victors of course! You won’t get the losers telling you how they were defeated and the barbarous acts commited upon their upons upon defeat. No. You get the Victors, telling a glorious tale where heroes rise from the ashes and the villain slain. History is propaganda used to brain wash people into believing that a country, nation or empire is far more superios than the rest.
But then again, each nation do believe that they are better than the rest. One example is China. The literal translations of China in Chinese is "the middle kingdown". It believed that China was between Ying and Yang, Heaven and Hell and was the perfect nation. Would China have the oldest history? Would it have the most interesting? I would say yes (in my opinion). Do I know any of China’s history? No. Haha, well I know a bit but have no clue about the various dynasties etc.
Moving away from ramblings. I got my Software Design project marked today. I got 18 out of 20. Only three people (inclusive) have got their programs marked today so I guess that makes me first. I’m not sure what the other two got but I’m pretty sure I outperformed. Haha, rather arrogant of me to say so, but that’s how I feel. I wouldn’t mind coming first in something, haven’t felt that feeling in a long time and wouldn’t mind feeling it again. When I was getting my project marked, there were a ring of people behind me. I don’t like attention but this time I didn’t mind, considering I knew my program was beyond excellent. Knowing people, there is probably a mixed amount of emotions. Some people won’t give a rats arse, some people might be jealous, others angry due to jealousy, or some may even be in awe. It doesn’t really matter, cause I would feel probably the same thing. I probably would work on my program later on to make it even better, though it wouldn’t make much of a difference. Truth be told I would really like to come first in Software Design. I crave it. I desire it. Though the more I want something the less chance I’m going to get it. That has occurred so many times.
Why do I like computers so much? I marvel at its existence. How can a series of 1s and 0s make up what I see infront of me? How the hell did they make the first computer? How did they know where to start? It is realy quiet amazing. I like helping people with computer related issues, especially computer optimisation and virus removal. It’s a challenge and I get satisfaction out of it. It’s like doing a maths problem but you can’t get the answer, but when you do you feel really good. Everytime I solve a problem in Visual Basics, I keep on getting the image of Hugh Jackman in Swordfish.
I’ll stop now.
I’ve added some more pics…enjoy.
Edit: Thanks Richard…
Don’t make me any promises, I wouldn’t want any disappointments
Aug 26th
Friday night. 6 o’clock exact
I should be relaxing tonight just like every other Friday night and hope to sleep in and wake up at around 10 tomorrow. Unfortunately, I have two weeks of tutoring homework to complete. Yep, that should get me through the rest of the night. You’d be lucky if you see me on online on MSN, supposing that you have me. I haven’t had a shower, still in school and uniform which is extremely unusual these days. Things keep on popping up and I’ve managed to keep up. I still have maths work to catch up and the chances of me crawling back to top 30 in the Grade is next 0.01. Though small as it is, it’s still a possiblity.
So how has my week been? Tiring, I’m sick again. I haven’t exactly got better, just better and then worse and now it’s getting better again. I hate it when I’m sick, I feel like shit talking. That’s why I hope that no unexpected conversations come up forcing me to chat and providing a bad impression.
Am I screwed? I have my Software Design project due on Monday, second up. I’ve only completed part of my project whilst still thinking about two other modules. I will survive.
Nothing really happened, except for the fact that more than half the grade had the 2unit Maths Trials of which I got obliterated in. I hate bitching about tests. I hate others bitching about tests because I can’t do anything if somebody goes "Oh my, I think I failed". Now I can’t say "No you haven’t" since I wouldn’t know, considering they were the one’s who did the test. It’s a lose lose situation, might as well keep my mouth shut or I can say something corny, that usually works too.
My mum says my brother is alot like me, personality wise. Is that a good thing or a bad? Don’t worry guys, he won’t end up liking the Matrix or Linkin Park as by the time he’s my age, there would be other things to enjoy. Yes I said enjoy. Some people just can’t grasp the concept.
One thing is true though, Firefox is alot faster than IE. I did a bandwidth test and I got 15mbit using firefox on the Optus Cable server whilst only 13mbit using IE7. The funny thing is it’s only suppose to be 10mbit. I had to install Firefox today due to problems accessing a website. IE7 beta 1 doesn’t seem to able to comply with the standards of coding (I forgot the technical name) so it was unable to access a site required by my mum. Who know’s how long it’ll take for Microsoft to release beta 2 to fix this issue.
You’re probably sick of my ramblings and personally so am I. I feel like trashing this blog right now.
Argh well, live with it as will I.
For now heres a pick of me.
Thanks to Tony for coming up with the idea and Alan for smothering my face in it. Can you see my inverted dimple?! Yes my eyes are closed.
Oh What A Night…
Aug 21st
Okay okay, I know I’m meant to be in bed asleep but I felt I had to write this as it wouldn’t be the same writing it tomorrow especially since I’ll be studying for Trials.
Tonight has to be one of the best after Tutoring Sunday Nights I’ve had. Tutoring was roughly about the same with Michael and I sick at the same time again. Surprisingly I got sick on Wednesday and he told me he got sick on that day as well. Haha, what are the possibilities eh? Everything else is nothing out of the ordinary. Sitting by myself in English with Michael breaking the pain in Writing. I still need to kill Jesse though. He hasn’t been online since the day before the first week of tutoring.
So anyways, I got back home today, had something to eat, went on the net for about 10 minutes, had nothing to do so I just slept on my bed until dinner. I’ve been sleeping so much these days, just can’t seem to find the energy. Maybe I should go to sleep earlier huh? I should start but it’s always so exciting and compelling at night. You’ll never know what’ll happen or what not for that matter. I’m so lame, hardly ever go out. I remember back in Pizza Hut where this guy Lyndon from Newington, same grade, would tell me about what had happened on Friday (the day before) and the sort of shit he got himself into all week. It mostly involved, drugs, sex and cops. You wouldn’t believe me if I told you but just trust me on this one okay? It was funny though, not that I would want to get involved, the overall jist was funny. It’s no use trying to convert him considering he is Christian and goes to one of the most respected schools in Sydney plus the fact that he wants to become a doctor. No use at all.
Anyways, so after dinner I had a shower, and after that I finished the 2003 Maths Trials. I reckon I can handle most of the questions now, just have to not get the integration and differentiation confused and I’ll be all set. Haha, I now remember the sum and product of roots all thanks to Sally for helping me plus enabling me to not get off my ass to fetch the textbook. So after finishing the Trial Paper I went back onto the beloved internet. Oh what will I do without you? The internet kills did you know that? We hate some of the things on the internet yet we can’t live without it. So anyways, at that time it was around 7:30. Kev had to go to dinner so I just did my usual stuff. It’s amazing how much laughter Neowin can give you. I forum every now and then. I can’t be bothered giving you the link to this flash movie I landed upon but if you want give me a yell on MSN Messenger and I’ll gladly redirect you. Why do I get the feeling that nobody is going to bother? Arh well, no big deal.
So, we finally started the poker game at 8:30 (I got the time off my chatlogs, funny how much they help me with stuff huh?) with Kev, Francis and I in the same tournament. At the same time I was multitasking talking to Sally. See my dedication on both accounts? Haha.
So anways, after 45 minutes of poker (thanks to chatlogs again) I won my first round! I think won around $1800. Hehe. I mean I wasn’t even giving the match any attention at all. I see crap cards I folded. When I saw an ace I called. You know the usual stuff any newb will do. Coincidentally, Kev was the first one of us to go. I was always expecting me to go, since I always had the least money up until that one round. Around 30 minutes later, Francis lost. That was a big surprise. I had two fives so I called. The flop had a five and two other cards. I ofcourse weren’t paying attention and the next thing I knew, Francis went all in. I was in aww, but I called and inevitably I won…big.
Now at the same time, Sally was getting bored. So ultimately we decided to play something on Yahoo. I tried signing up with the name Jexel but it was already taken! Farout! That is absolute bull. So then I tried PCBEEF to have the site tell me that that too was taken. That could only mean one thing…that I had already signed up before. I tried to sign in and it worked, I’m so stupid, I hardly remember, think the last time I played on Yahoo games was with Dennis in a game of Chess or something.
Okay so now there were 3 players left in the match with me coming first with a handsome amount of cash. Ironically the guy who’s ego was orbiting the sun at the speed of light was coming second and being stupid as he is, went all-in in pretty much every single round. That led to his down fall and I took him out. I can’t remember what I had, must of been something stupid.
Now the real dilemma was this. I can’t play heads up in poker whilst play pool with Sally. I didn’t even know what to do in pool. So anyways, Sally had to wait, haha…waiting for me to finish gambling. So anyways, I believe if anybody else was in my position they would of taken the last guy out easily. I don’t know how to play in a 1v1 situation so I was as lost as ever. Calling this and that, trying to bluff my way through, folding here and there, raising this and that doing God know’s what. I think my luck struck when I had a queen or something and the flop also contained a queen. The other guy went all in and he revealed a seven and another card. So he had a double seven (there were a seven on the flop) and I had a double queen (I think). What came next was pure luck, the turn was another seven with the river being something else. So then I went down to like 8k with the other guy on 6k.
At this very moment, the pool game is still running with me telling Sally, that’s it’ll be over soon. Haha, I guess she wasn’t too hyped up about it and was purely dead set bored whilst I just wanted to get the game over and done with to stop Sally with waiting. If I won this game it wouldn’t of been my first tournament win.
To make it even worse, I found out that Kevin, Francis and Jason were all observing the match. I didn’t have a clue until Jason went "WTF" when the guy won the round with triple seven. From then on end, I just checked, raised and folded randomly, depending on the situation and somehow by random I ended up with 10k on my hands with him on like 4k. Then came the final round. I received two cards with the same suit, clubs. I believe I called and he checked. The flop contained three clubs. I was about to say an end message before he could do anything but the next thing I know he went all in, knowing that he’s fate is short lived. So I simply types "It’s all over now" in the message box, hit enter and clicked call.
I had won.
Yeah! Hahaha, my first tournament win! It took 1hour and 20 minutes.
Okay now lets not forget Sally, who’s probably bored shitless. So yeah we began our game of pool. It took me some time to work out what to do and who was who etc. Surprisingly I won the first two rounds with Sally making silly mistakes. Haha, I thought I was on a roll but then I made the same mistake she had made…twice. Haha, it was only pool…internet pool and I had gotten owned. It was fun but real life pool have to be way better.
In all, it was a great night. Life is a series of twists and turns, ups and downs in a never ending cycle. I guess this made up for me being sick. Let’s just hope I do well in the maths trials. I should get to sleep now but I feel I’ve left out something.
Something made me tick inside me when Peter (English Tutor at SEC) mentioned a quote from Batman Begin.
"it’s not who you are underneath, it’s what you do that defines you." – Rachel Dawes (Played by Katie Holmes)
Think about it.
It’s time for me to head off to bed now. Took me 45 minutes to write this blog. Hope it’s worth a read or half. Until next time, when I’m in the mood. I bid thee good night.
In my humble opinion…
Aug 16th
I just watched the most disgraceful piece of journalism, so low that it makes me want to puke. I hardly ever watch news these days due to what I’ve learnt over the years…news is pretty much sensationalised crap. So yes, this is going to be a major bitch.
Actually there were two things that were utterly stupid. I’ll start off with the less stupid one, keeping you guys in suspence for a while. Believe it or not we’re are known as the "ipod generation". This first story was on about how certain music players are able to reach 130 decibels, a level considered to be harmful.
It was just so fucking stupid. How dumb can you get to listen to your mp3 player at full blast?! Of course you’re going to damage your hearing! My television right now can be turned up to a level of over 100 though I keep it at an average of 18. Just because it can reach that high doesn’t mean you listen to it that high! It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out when something is too loud to handle. When the music is turned up to a rate where the sound becomes distorted, you know you’re listening to it too loud. My mp3 player can reach to a level of 40, I have it set to 20 when on the road and around 10 or 15 in slightly quieter conditions. Though I don’t know the actual decibel unleashed by my mp3 I’m pretty sure it’s not 130 decibels. I mean why do people listen to music so loud in the first place? Do they think its cool? Hey look at me, I listen to music so loud people can hear it 10 metres away! I’m so cool! Idiots.
Sony did a great job by implementing a feature known as AVLS. I have it on my minidisk, what it does it that it disallows you to go over a level that may be harmful to your hearing. Though you can disable the feature, it’s good that Sony have at least thought about the dumbasses who listens to music at a dangerous level.
Now, that story was pretty much stupid, it didn’t convey any message to teenagers as chances are, we’re not going to stop listening to music, people without children aren’t going to give a crap considering their hearing is probably worse than that of teens so chances are it’s only going to attract soccer mums believing anything and everything sensationalised news provide. Give them a couple of statistics, a few quotes from professionals, several clips of shots here and there and voila, in an instant they will be shouting at their kids telling them that listening to music is bad for their health and what not. Have to love the soccer mums.
Now the second piece of journalism is absolute paraphernalia. Urgh! Family friend came over, usually I would be happy to see their son (as we are friends) but now I would have to finish this blog at a later time. I’ve pretty much lost my train of thought and hopefully can jump into the game again. I haven’t done any work tonight due to so many distractions and don’t think I will. I probably get something to drink and hit the sack early for once.
So like I was saying, there was this second story which appeared on Today Tonight was utter journalistic shit.
"In the end, we’re not going to integrate"
A muslim said this and it seems that channel seven is up in arms along with other people regarding Australia’s current multiculturalism policy. There is a part of me agreeing with this fact, reason being I wouldn’t feel very comfortable living in China where everywhere I see are Caucasians. I am not trying to contradict myself you fool, merely providing my opinion. What really made my blood boil is the fact that they referred to US as "Asians". It’s fine for Asians to call Asians Asians, but it’s not fine when Caucasians use the term so bluntly, using it as a generalisation for Chinese people. It was just so fucking idiotic. They filmed Ashfield and on about how after 20 years there’s only one "white" shop along this block, whilst the rest were all "Asian". They were so bloody thick. Just because they see a foreign character which they don’t understand they refer to it as Asian. I’ll bet if you place Korean and Chinese next to each other, they wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. The shops in which they had the cameras on were all CHINESE!
Here’s the bombshell, the interview woman was like "and all these signs are Asian as well" with the owner of t…
Holy shit!
It’s my mother’s birthday tomorrow!!! My father just came over and was like "John, I made a terrible mistake…it’s your mother’s birthday tomorrow." You know the usual went on and now I’m going to buy her this massager thing. You put it on the chair and it’s suppose to massage your back. My dad was planning to buy it but considering he’s so busy these day, I ought to take off some of the burden. So tomorrow, after school, going to buy my dear mother something special. Should I buy some flowers? I can’t believe I forgot also! I feel like an idiot. I remember most people’s birthdays but when it comes to the actual day I tend to forget.
Okay continuing from before…owner of the one "white" shop exclaiming "Yeah…all the signs are Asian." That one statement just literally threw me off inside. The signs weren’t Asian, they were CHINESE! Asian is not a language! How can they state something is Asian?! Wow, it looks Asian so therefore we can classify it as Asian! That seriously made me tick. Next thing you know you’ll get Caucasians going to Chinese people and asking "Hi, do you speak Asian?" Why yes I speak Asian, do you speak Engrish?
In addition, they didn’t have an quotes from any Asian (I’m Asian so I have the right to use this term) people. They merely interviewed two Caucasion civilians and having around two professionals. What’s really ironic is the fact that the Caucasion shop owner said that originally the street had Italian restaraunts and now it’s all Asian. Hello?! Who made up the derogatory term "wog"?! *raises hand* Oh pick me, pick me. I know! Let me guess…Caucasians or more specifically white Australians?!
Another thing was that they addressed assimilation. The white Australia policy has only been abanded for less than three decades and now they want us to go back to the stolen generation and assimilate into a white Australia. They can kiss my yellow ass, cause ain’t no one gonna strip me of my heritage and force me to assimilate. Though I probably shouldn’t be talking about heritage considering I’m a lost soul when it comes to reading and writing Chinese. I can speak fluently but my vocab is smaller than a Year 2 in China if not Year 1. I see a perfect Australia through abolishing multiculturalism. A local every couple of streets, Australia restaruants serving nothing but steak, celebrating Chinese New Year…oh wait…my bad…celebrating New Year.
Urgh! Think I’ll write something on the today tonight website. Feel free to write whatever you like with this link.
Do you know why some blogs have over 100 comments? It’s because they write controversial blogs such as this which everybody is capable of having a say. Against with what I had to say? Bring it on, I’m game…are you?
People sure do behave weirdly
Aug 14th
Okay this is going to be short and snappy, though not as short as the previous blog. It’s funny, how I recieved 4 comments from an entry less than 20 words. I was about to continue from that blog but what the heck, might as well start afresh.
Today has been a long and uneventful day, unfortunately. Had the usual tutoring, which was generally okay. I couldn’t get the image of Sally getting hit in the face by a soccer ball out of my face. Hahahaha, I’m even laughing now. The incident is just too funny. She got pretty much knocked out! Haha, so sadisitic of me to laugh considering she did had her lip cut. Come on Sal, it takes more than a ball to bring you down! It takes two.
I added a Windows Media Player module on my blog, I’ll upload my favourite songs to a server and might periodically change the songs. My current server allows only 1 meg file size uploading thus you guys will have to cope with a skit from JJ Lin’s 2 album, Di Er Tian Tang. I feel like such a wannabe having asian music on.
Anyways, I just came back from dinner at a restaruant in Beverly Hills. Man they have like the best restaraunts there! Though that’s probably the only thing good about it…
Anyways, I was sorta expecting to have a chat with Kathy, but she had some piano thing so she was away during the afternoon. I only met up during the restaruant which I was forced to sit next to my grandma (eek!). So there I was between my mother and my grandmother, whilst Kathy is sitting at 2 oclock. I was thinking about saying something but considering there were three oldies seperating us, it wouldn’t be wise, plus all the adults would have to stop chatting and listen *shivers*. I’m pretty sure none of you’s know who she is but I’m just rambling on here about my life. So anyways, after about one and half hours, the dinner finally comes to an end and as we heading for our cars, I started a convo. I promised Diana I would say hi to Kathy for her so that’s what I did first. So lame of me but nevertheless…
We had like a three minute chat before both our families got into our cars and drove off.
Tomorrow I have a English Speech first period. I’ve memorised half of it and here I am writing a blog. Why I am doing it I have no idea.
Sometimes I wonder how things just work. Like what are the chances of life actually forming? There a billions galaxies out there each containing billions and billions of stars and somehow life just decides to form on our miserable little planet. I sometimes wonder whether if any of it is reason, I know I exist merely because I’m in control of my life but how can I tell if others are in control of theirs? For all I know, this could be a game, where I’m just a pawn. My earliest memory have to be when I suddenly woke up staring at the ceiling thinking "I’m here". Why do I bother? Wasn’t the meaning of life 42 or something?
Remind me to write something about Chinese Etiquette next time, cause today I’m just far too busy.
How Low Can You Go?
Aug 13th
Just click on the below pics and work it out yourself. The internet has soo many weirdos on it…*sigh*
Edit:
@ Henry – It gives me the link to the page. If I want to look up pics of pornstars, I’ll just come straight to you.
My neck is hurting like a b!tch.
Aug 11th
This morning I woke up with a sore upper left should neck muscle. It wasn’t a big deal considering it usually means that I was sleeping in one screwed up position. I was still able to do the regular stuff, the soreness didn’t prevent me initiating my usual activities. However, for some anal reason Alan decided to static shock me in Maths today…in the ear!
It made me jump up and those who actually cared turned around to see what had happened. Oh my god, that was painful, mainly because I felt it surging through my neck, as the electrons travelled through my ears at the speed of light. The electricity literally went through my neck.
I started to laugh, as it was pretty funny as it wouldn’t look too good if I had thrown a fit. So after a good laugh, we went back into doing work and I didn’t worry too much about it. However, during the last couple minutes of lunch I had this unexpected neck cramp. That was fucking painful I tell you, too bad nobody cared and continued with observing/playing poker. This wasn’t a normal cramp as you can’t really get rid of it by stretching your neck.
So from then on, my neck has been getting these small cramps every now and then, and trust me they are painful. It’s like as if it’s going through a rollercoaster ride. The dip is the peak of the pain and then it eases when the carriage reaches the trough. Jesus, I can’t move my neck, I have tried massaging it and also moving my neck around but nothing seems to work.
Edit:
I really admire, how should I put it? Women?
Not only because they have one thing we men don’t possess…a brain but they also possess the ability to sense other people’s emotions. I can never fool my mother. When I catch the cold or flu (what’s the difference!) she is the first person to know. My dad on the other hand is hopeless. I was throwing a couple of sneezes around and he says to me "Watch out or you might catch the cold." I was thinking "Too bloody late". That of course was the day before Kevin’s sleepover. *sigh*
I just came back from a shower by the way. The hot water helped…while it lasted. Before the shower was something like this:
John: Grandma, are there any spare towels?
Gran: What sort of towels?
John: Shower towels.
Gran: Oh, they’re here.
*blah blah blah*
*blah blah blah*
*hands me the towel*
*blah blah blah*
Gran: *out of nowhere* What’s wrong with your neck? Where does it hurt?
John: Here *points to the neck*
Gran: Did you "twist" it? Did you do it when you were asleep?
John: Last night
*blah blah blah*
My dad on the other hand, didn’t have a clue. I was in pain trying to have dinner and he just sat there ignorant. I don’t blame him, it’s not like I want him to know.
But it’s quiet amazing, women are the first to realise that something’s wrong. Guys are literally hopeless. But then again, there are some exceptions for both genders.
My grandma probably told my parents when they arrived home whilst I was in the shower, so my mum gave me a massage. Now I have this warm bean bag on my shoulder, that’s suppose to help. In a sense it’s working. I haven’t had a cramp with it on me.
2 for 1 Special
Aug 10th
This is the second time this week in which I have deleted completely my entire blog entry. When I first started blogging I actually wanted people to read my blog, but now I don’t. Well some people anyways. It’s cause anybody who has me on their contact list can just click the "glowing" star otherwise known as gleam and then read everything that I have to say.
*sigh*
"A lot of people ask me.. stupid fucking questions
A lot of people think that.. what I say on records
or what I talk about on a record, that I actually do in real life
or that I believe in it
Or if I say that, I wanna kill somebody, that..
I’m actually gonna do it
or that I believe in it
Well, sh*t.. if you believe that
then I’ll kill you
You know why?
Cuz I’m a…
…CRIMINAL"
A lot of people think that.. what I say on records
or what I talk about on a record, that I actually do in real life
or that I believe in it
Or if I say that, I wanna kill somebody, that..
I’m actually gonna do it
or that I believe in it
Well, sh*t.. if you believe that
then I’ll kill you
You know why?
Cuz I’m a…
…CRIMINAL"
If Khalil was reading this he’d prob piss himself with anger. Fuck that. So you see, some people might judge me just on what I write on my blog. There’s a difference between what I write and what I’m like in real life.
*sigh*
Real life…
The below is the only remnance of my the original entry. Enjoy.
I scored in soccer today.
"You think it’s perfect and everything is so fine would you look through your spiritual eyes
You think its nice but please open your eyes, this place is but a beautiful sky"
10 seconds of breakdown
Aug 9th
This morning I got on the school bus as usual but there weren’t any empty seats or at least somebody acknowledgable sitting in one of the seatts. I saw Raymond (6th Grade Captain who’s in year 12) so I decided to sit next to him.
John: *being friendly* heello (Note: I’ve never had a direct conversation with him)
Raymond: *tilts his head, gives me half a glance and goes back to staring out the window
John: *thinks to myself…okay* You’re Raymond right?
Raymond: *unenthusiastically* yeah
John: You don’t remember me do you?
Raymond: *shakes head*
John: I’m in your team
Raymond: You are? * moves back to have a closer look at me (I notice the oxymoron)*
John: Um…yeah…I’m the new guy
Raymond: All yeah!
*silence*
Raymond: So what’s your name?
John: John
Raymod: What?
John: John
*pause*
John: So what subjects you doing?
Raymond: Phys, chem and engineering plus the usual other subjects. You know, the fob subjects.
John: I though Eco was fob.
Raymond: Well apart from Eco.
*pause*
Raymond: So what subjects do you do?
John: Eco, phys and software design.
Raymond: What?
John: Software Design.
Raymond: *acknowledges with a head movement*
*pause*
Raymond: *turns to Jimmy behind him and asks a question*
John: *stares blankly out the window*
*pause*
John: *Puts on earphones and listent to music for the rest of the ride*
That is why I hate starting conversations. I’m not the attention seeker type so chances are nobody remembers me.
In maths today…
John: Oh my god Steven, so fob.
Steven: Just because I’m with Virgin and you’re not.
John: um…is that suppose to be an insult?!
Steven: *cracks up laughing* *amidst laughter* We’re not as dirty minded as you
It’s not all that funny, but you get the general gist. He was talking about 5cents Virgin to Virgin so yeah.
Here is a comparison regarding the thickness of Steven.
John: There was a white guy who started to live with an black tribe. Suddenly a black woman gave birth to a white baby. The chieftan of the tribe went up to the White guy and said "Explain yourself, how did this happen?!" The white guy replies "You know how in a flock of sheep, there’s always one black sheep?" The chieftan replies "Okay I’ll keep quiet about the baby and you keep quiet about the sheep."
*5 seconds pause*
Steven: I don’t get it.
Now this is Tony’s reaction:
John: There was a white guy who started to live with an black tribe. Suddenly a black woman gave birth to a white baby. The chieftan of the tribe went up to the White guy and said "Explain yourself, how did this happen?!" The white guy replies "You know how in a flock of sheep, there’s always one black sheep?" The chieftan replies "Okay I’ll keep quiet about the baby and you keep quiet about the sheep."
*5 seconds pause*
Tony: *chokes in laughter whilst giving me hand gestures* I get it *more laughter*
Now did you get it?!
At roll call this morning.
Dennis: *holds the cover of lip bun close to his face observing the reflection* (Note: It was a convex piece of metal)
Jack: It makes you look skinnier doesn’t it Dennis?
Dennis: *lost look* *Silently* Convex mirrors make you look fatter not skinnier. *Screams out to Jack* You’re dumb Jack, no wonder you’re so shit in physics.
Jack: You’re fat Dennis, no wonder you’re so shit in life.
Dennis: *Looks at me* What does me being fat have anything to do with maths?
John: Life
Dennis: *giggles* oh Life *shrugs*
I would say Dennis did the most damage. Fat insults against Dennis is not very effective, there’s almost an immunity.
But I still can’t forget this conversation from a while back.
*Everybody discussing sex topics upon landing on bukkake*
Henry: What’s bukkake
*Silence*
John: *collapses* (In my mind at least)
Kelvin: It’s Japanese bread.
Henry: *lost look* huh?
Kelvin: …soaked in pussy juice
Henry: *understanding look* Oh…
*Everybody was like WTF*
Kelvin: Oh my god, he fell for it.
*throws couple of insults around, people in disbelieving looks*
Henry: How was I suppose to know?!
It was an in the moment thing so it may not appear to be as funny.
If you don’t know what bukkake is and you want to find out, look it up on wikipedia.
That’s all for now.
I feel so damn good…
Aug 5th
Okay, I was suppose to write this blog at school…but…unforseen circumstances interfered with my ability to convey my point of view. Well I had two free periods today so that was plenty of time, but considering it is at school, I theoretically prefer nobody to be watching me as I write my entry. It’s just like doing homework with your parents or teach standing behind you. It just doesn’t work.
So here I am, at it again, doing the same thing for the past 7 months. Never thought I keep it up as long as I did, but strangely it has. I haven’t blogged for one whole week and was planning not to. I thought about writing my "last" entry last week but knowing me I wouldn’t keep it up thus I thought of chucking you guys in suspense.
My current mood is surely temporary considering I have an English Speech in Week 5 and also be getting my economics result back on Monday. A mood of content was never meant to last…sooner or later something will happen that throws everything off balance. I love it when it happens whilst dread it at the same time. I my friend can be classified as a pessimist when it comes to situations that has never occured yet e.g. such as meeting new people *wink* or getting results back from tests. But however, I’m never the type that cries out in vane regarding the horrendousness after a particularly bad test. No sir, that I’m afraid is what I lack. Those who cry out in vane usually end up getting bad, for those who cry out in vane whom actually realise that they got "owned" get owned when the results fly by, though they’ve been expecting it thus it really is no big deal. After a test, I would like to picture myself getting high marks and that is my failure. It never happens. Everytime, whilst expecting something of a high standard I’m brought back down to rock bottom to start again. Though that has never stopped me from trying. One would remember me trying out for second grade soccer whilst ending up down in 7th Grade. Though I’m also a optimist in sticky situations. Does anybody remember the Townhall "gas" leaks? Not once was I worried, not once was I in any concern regarding my own wellbeing or the wellbeing of others, knowing that there is NOTHING to worry about? How now, can I keep my cool? It’s a challenge, an adventure, something out of the ordinary world…something different. So in the end what happened? I got home one hour later and nobody was hurt. So what would I be classified as? Pessimist? Optimist?
Does my mood have anything to do with the music I’m listening to? I think it does. Come to think about it, I might of become more moody due to listening to too much Eminem or Linkin Park. Either that or the fact that I have people going around making crude jokes in regarding my personal tastes in music amongst other things. Normally I would throw in a eff this and eff that but today amongst other days I’m refraining from the use of obscene language. Speaking of which I was on the bus this morning sitting on the sits at the very front and this Junior SGHS just goes "Shit!" extremely loud, right next to the bus driver. She stops and realises what she just said and quickly apologises to the bus driver. I found it absolutely hilarious! I have no idea why but it was the way she said it, it wasn’t like a typical curse but it was one of those sudden realisations and totally out of the blue. So anyways…music. Raise your hand if you know an artist called Lin Jun Jie. I heard him when I was in China last year and decided to download this one song "Jian Nan" in order for it to act as an memoir. I still remember Nancy in tutoring attempting to remember the lyrics to the song when I was pretty much the only other person in the room who knew it. Ahhh…made me feel so special. So anyways, Kelvin downloaded couple of songs and let me listen to them. The thing was I liked it. "Jian Nan" was pretty much the only song I listen to every now and then but this whole idea of listening to more Chinese music was different. So I got home and began downloading like crazy. Now I have around 22 of his songs out of the 38 he’s written in 3 of his albums.
I find the music, extremely good, I can understand some of the lyrics but that’s enough for me to go on. I can’t comprehend the idea of listening to music which I don’t understand the lyrics. Though they may argue that it has a good beat and you don’t need to understand the lyrics to appreciate the song I can argue why don’t you just get music without lyrics?! So sorry, if I offended anybody in the process. I just find it extremely stupid. So yeah I’ve been listening to Lin Jun Jie’s music for the past two days. It has been absolutely awesome! Though there are always song which I can’t grasp onto, others I am able to listen to over and over again. Songs such as "Mu na yi", "Nu er jia", "Hui du shu", "Jiu shi wo", "Dou jian you tiao", "Jian nan", "Di Er Tian Tan" and that duet song with Jin Sha. Awesome music, and I actually understand a proportion of the lyrics. Something that I am proud of.
Okay I’m gonn have dinner now. Be back to finish this later.
Okay now I’m back from dinner. My mum told me to pour her some wine and so I did. She then went on about how she will never encourage me so smoke she does expect me to drink abit. Though she did not say it along those exact lines but its close. So I decided what the heck, might as well start young and pour myself a tiny bit of wine. I’m such a virgin, I’ve never actually drank out of my own cup before, usually its just the chopstick dip or taking a small sip from another glass. In conclusion, it tastes like crap. Though I’m sure I will get used to it considering drinking is a social expectation. Never drink with food in your mouth, make the taste even worse. Main reason I actually drank with food in my mouth is cause that what I did with any other non-alcoholic beverage. Silly me. So in the end I still have a gulp of wine left in my glass (I started with a gulp and a bit) so my mum was like "Gan bei". It’s pretty much smash your glasses together and drink it all down. I managed to get it all down.
Okay enough of my dinner more about what I was talking about earlier and that was Lin Jun Jie. He might just become my next idol. Since nobody actually knows him or listens to his music it gives me far greater enthusiams to listen. He’s Singaporean and as we all know everybody loves Singapore! Well they do provide the best airline service so go figure. But my favourite song of his right now has to be "Hui Du Shu" and the literal translation is "Able to study" or "will study" however the English translation on his album is simply "Books". I guess you’ll have to listen to it in order to determine your own opinion.
I’m gonna go to Woolworths and buy a 9 volt battary. Be back in half an hour. It doesn’t really matter considering I’m saving it as a draft rather than publishing it. For your sake its 5:55 right now. Don’t miss me.
Back again…6:25. Not bad, not bad at all. Take note that I began writing this blog at 4:57. I also made a run to the Asian/Western Grocery store and bought some soy milk with added sugar and of course during the whole errand I brought along "my" mp3 player and take a guess who I was listening to…you guessed it.
He’s whole music just makes me want to smile, it’s so vibrant and full of energy. Though don’t get me wrong, I’m still going to listen to Linkin Park or Eminem every now and then and lets not forget my Asian Rap songs.
So moving along, what else has gotten me to hyped up? Though I have no reason to considering I have a load of homework to get through, guess I’ll just have to do them all tomorrow. I might even watch Shaolin Soccer tonight, thanks to Richard.
Oh my god, I just remember something I need to write about though everytime I actually blog I never remember. I might have touched on it but never have I, I don’t know…elaborated? Asians going out with other races. I never like using the word race, considering there isn’t that big of difference between cultures to distinguish the two as different people. But anyways, I’ve noticed alot of things regarding Asians and their not so Asian partners (a) the girl is usually Asian (b) the Asian girl wears alot of makeup and to put it bluntly looks like a slut and (c) I hardly ever notice Asian guys going out with not so Asian girls.
Though it may just be me but theres definately a problem here. Is it cause white girls are plainly too intimidating for us Asian guys to handle? Or perhaps we just lack the durability of our equipment? Who knows these things, all but the truth. I know I’m generalising as I’m sure there are heaps of Asian girls who aren’t making them look like pornstars. The reason I’m bringing this up is due to the fact that my mum’s friends daughter is engaged to a person of European decent (happy now?). My mum told me that she (the daughter) feels that she has hanged out with Caucasians for far too long to adopt to the Asian way of life (supposedly she used to live in an area where there were hardly any Asians). Fair enough. What exactly is my problem? I don’t see anything wrong with the whole process but it feels like there something else there too. *sigh* I’m giving up already, I can tell why I never elaborate on these issues. I’m not exactly too comfortable expressing these views. Let’s hope I never touch on this again. Though hoping never has gotten anybody anywhere…
This is turning out into a really long blog just like before. Argh well, it makes up for the one week of absence. Don’t think anybody minded.
Thinking about the sitting arrangements in SEC it’s pretty whacked. Poor Henry is stuck sitting next to me in all three subjects whilst Quinton is the chick magnet though I’m not to sure whether the girls are attracted to him or him attracted to the girls…hmmm…haha…just kidding. I’m sure he will enjoy SEC far more than me. I seriously do not feel like making any form of conversation during SEC except in Writing of course where I have Michael plus an awesome teacher. The respect for Anthony (the tutor) soared sky high as soon as he mentioned that he went to China to study Chinese…in Shanghai. I seriously don’t get why it really matters though it seems to matter to Henry. Surprise me. Well, the irony is that I never really did stir up a conversation with anybody whom I never knew, I usually wait for them to start it. Haha, all kinds of memories are coming back…lovely. I wasn’t being sarcastic. Jesse was an exception considering back then I knew NOONE, it was pretty much get to know someone or nigelate yourself.
To end this blog I would like to say I’ve come up with a new alias.
J²eXeL or J²exel or J² or Jay². The latter two were inspired by Kevin. *thumbs up*
The ² obviously is there to symbolise JJ. For those who haven’t got it yet up to this stage. My initials are JJ. So now I ask you, what alias should I use? J² seems really clean and neat though it may be taken…I’ll see.
I’ve decided to add some pics of my MD and my new mp3 player.
Okay, I bade thee farewell and may your inner most desires become reality.
